i wanna cry..i wanna run away..

sometimes i feel like cutting myself coz dat way i wont feel anything..but yet feel satisfied wen i see those red line marks!

why? why? why?

why is dis happenning to me?!!

Ya Allah!!

is tis my balasan bcoz of the wrongdoing ive done?

im crying..inside..in silent.

i still cant frget fifie.
i still haven gotten over faz.
now my hart seem to be blocking other people to enter..
it is juz so hard!
='[

i wanna run away.
i wanna cry my heart out.
im tired.
im lonely.
sobzx!!!


i used to hev all the things i want.
now not anymore.
maybe i juz need to focus on my studies...
coz deres this saying tat says..
''wat we hev is wat we need''


damn.
possesion takings over.
i wanna listen to rawk music..
DROWNED myself from this real werld.
mosh! mosh! mosh!
i wan to mosh..being pushed from here to dere.
being THROWN!
i wanna jump up high.
rawking3!!
till im too weak to stand up again.
u wanna hev him? take. im alreadi bleeding. i wan to frget him..i wan too..
help me.
plz.
help me..
i wana cry rite now.
='[