i wonder why some drat declare themself as single to some prat while they were actually in a relation wif someone.
ow well.
=x

i dread wishing for school to reopen soon.

truth is-

im not even close to ready.

~

havent redyed my hair.

+

havent buy the school books , nor shopped fer all the school supplies.

+

new classmates.same topics.

*dunno if i can put up wif all tis shiet.

ow *fucking* well..

gahh !

nyehh.

the planned wif rynie was rearranged-AGAIN

guess i'll juz rot at home .

1 more day till 2009.

wats is ur new year resolutions?

n wat is ur most memorable moment in 2008?

hmm.

mann , gonna miss havin' u guys arnd in class=[

nyeah.

the previous post was meant fer faz , not syaff.

nyaahaa x)

im smiling so wide in this shot n im clueless why.

Mann we ain't talked since we left

It's so overdue

It's cold outside

But between us

It's worse in here

*

The world slows down but my heart beats fast right now

I know this is the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer

Thought that we were stronger

All we do is linger

Slipping through our fingers

*

Everyday takes of the same old scene

Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine

Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep

But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me

*

I know you'll ask me to hold on

And carry on like nothing is wrong

But there is no more time for lies

Cause I see sun set in your eyes

*

overeacting it may seem.

holding back the acceleration to trigger

i juz couldnt move without exploding.

im sorry too bby.

i just hate this part right here.

imy.=[

ow well.

its 2.24 am in the morning.

anyone wanna guess whre im at?

nyaahaa~

im at tis typical neighbourhood which is full of matreps n scenekid.

Yishun la deng.

gee.

~thoning wif faz.

ok im bored.

xD

ini random~dis is wat we've been doin.

soo..

actually somebody did brought along a camera.

*cross referred to the previous post.-sentosa

wee~

bfore meeting the rest~

bdae cake-hancur-was hit by a ball.

candid,bby !

the gerls arnd.

random~

xD

*BOO IMY !!!

okie woob.

i wanna start tis post wishing Huda all the best wishes n heppi 15th bdae !

&..&..

Merry Christmas peeoople !

gahh~

my head still sore due to skating yest nite.

was attempting to do olie but eventually dropped flat~backward wif my head viciously hit the floor.

hurt?

fucking-extremely-hurt sia.

erghh!

Faz n Shalam(ya's guy) sleepover at our crib tooz..so dis also means that i doesnt get much of a slp.

im so sleepy,im so destroyed.

yawwnnnn!

=.=zzzzZZZZZZZ

hey you !
yes you..jerk
how mny times hev i told u to mcg me wen uve reacched home?
i got soo fucking werried bout u till i cant possibly slp in peace.
its not once,or twice..but its been multi time since uve done that.
is it so diffclt to spend juz a few second to type n send e mcg?
erghh!
bodow peh bundai.
imy.

nyeah.
im currently at home.alone.everybodys out to toa payoh.
kitchen is empty.no food.im fucking hungry.
effing tired.body cramps.headache.wana racked out.


yest trip to sentosa was a hell of fun !
dan,aliif.sri,fat,nabil,syaff n dunno his name make it all happened.
no pictures as everyone doesn bring along a camera.


ok boo.
sway to the tunes of The Sallys !

juz reach home from a trip to...TOWN!
lol.
ok well.
wen skating wif my cyg,acip n feeq.
had fun.
yee.
woohoo!

hepi bdae to kakti n syaff.
smoga pjg umur n murah rezki.
wee~

i cant wait for school to reopens.
seriously.
counting down the days..
12 more days erh?
ok well.

to faz n katek.
r u guys sure u wan me to pierce ur eyebrows?
things to consider wisely~
wat if i pierce it wrongly n blood wont stop dripping?
wat if my hollow pin is not the same size as ur stud?
wat if i pierce it weirdly? i mean senget or too far..
wat if i turn u guys into two blind mice?
i wont mind if u guys hev an insurance(the eye).
mepek sey aku.

hmm..pretty bored rite now.
grr.
i cant wait to turn 16.
its easier to find a job wen im 16. yurh rite.
was window shopping at far east n i saw this omfg-gorgeous-cute-pink n black shoes.
ori cost was $175..but since its christmas(i tink) the cost of it is just $85.
cheap? definitely!*HINT3

yabbing~
bby can i hev dat shoe fer christmas instead of a sk8board ?
grr.
OK woots.
luv u hun !
xD

Fiq told me that theres gona be a gig tis sun.
The comic strip is performing.
n.
no its not hardcore.
tapii ska.
wee~
been quite some time since i met up wif him.
the last time was at Noise November..
aneway..this sun is also kakti n syaff bdae.
so dun tink i'll be able to attend. boo..
shalam is comin to my house to cook some dishes.
and juz fer anyone info..
shalam bdae is dis sat.
its tomorow !

anyway dis is fiq.



n hes a punk ! cool per..
wootzx !

*bby..make urself free k dis sun. ily wee ~

theres a big mountain emerging outta my skin at my nose.
technically..what im trying to impart is that..
I HAVE A PIMPLE GROWING OUT AT MY NOSE !!
N ITS EFFING HUGE..ok well dats what syaff describe it as.
Now since its near my eyes..im clueless of if the soul oppsite of me is staring at my mountain or looking directly at my black pupil.

"stop staring at my pimple u freak !"
gosh..


omg.
juz deleted many of my affiliates.
kalaw nk move pon tlg la bilang.
=.=

cant wait for tmrw's outing.
weee~
*ily bby.
xD

i knew today was goin to be different.
and it does.
i miss my cyg.
=[

chatted wif Aok today.
received the news that he baruu kuarkan motor a few days back so yurh it was a shocking news when he mentioned abt goin riding together.

*

aok says dat i was trying to discriminate them.

after a few hours of tension, everything seems to return to normalcy.

i mean since when hev i tried to discriminate them?

its juz that im bz wif boifiee n stuff.

*

noh kol. aok planned. we meet up.

chill wif noh n aok juz now at teban.

n its my first fcking time to rode a scrambler.

(scrambler-is tis ow its suppose to be spelt?)

i mean as the pillion ofcoz.

Aok peh perah seram gilerr oii.

effing2 scary.

quite a few times i cant keep up wif his changing of gears n felt like being swooshed to the back.

luckily i didnt fall.

woob~

*

Aok is juz my x collegue taw cyg. tkmo jelez k. ily.

dunno wat had came over me.
effing lazy to go out n hev fun wen i was the one who loves to socialise n meet up wif frens.
its a freaking saturday sumore.
juz rejected zarin,who invited me to chill at sembawang.
n noh n aok also ajak lepak at town.
they were pissed. aite. figures.
typical of guys huh.

planned to meet up with faz.
but apologies dear,
i just feel like rotting at home n drowned myself into books.

i cant bloody wait to turn 16.
erghh!

*found this 35 secret thingy at friendster.
ive nothing to do anyway..
copied.
so here it goes.

Message: 35 Little Secrets:
Be honest no matter what!

[ONE] Who was your last text from?
Boochy.

[TWO] Where was your default pic taken?
Roomie.

[THREE]Your relationship status?
In a relationship i guess? figures.

[FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend?
Soo many to be mention.

[FIVE] What is your current mood?
Dope.

[SIX] What's your sista's name?
Sarawati,Syahirah n Syafiqah !

[SEVEN ] What's your favorite color(s)?
Red. black. pink.

[EIGHT] With Who do you wish you were right now?
Fazly =[

[NINE] Have a crazy side?
Who duns ?

[TEN] Ever had a near death experience?
While riding a few weeks back.

[ELEVEN] Something you do a lot?
i do alot of reading lately.

[TWELVE] Angry at anyone?
Nehh.

[THIRTEEN] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
im att aneway. dweeb.

[FOURTEEN] When was the last time you cried?
Ntah.

[FIFTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
yeah dere is.

[SIXTEEN] Love your Boyfriend?
apee jee. durrh.

[SEVENTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
my baby.

[EIGHTEEN] What are your favorite songs?
latina swing-the sallys

[NINETEEN] What are you doing right now?
watching miss universe 2008

[TWENTY] Who do you trust right now?
some people out dere.

[TWENTY-ONE] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
dunno.

[TWENTY-TWO] Have you kissed someone in the past week?
my boifiee?

[TWENTY-THREE] What is your lucky number?
idk.

[TWENTY-FOUR] Who are your friends that are closest to you?
Boochy.

[TWENTY- FIVE] Describe your life in one word?
funny.

[TWENTY- SIX] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
haven. shud try erh?

[TWENTY-SEVEN] Who are you thinking of right now?
many people~

[TWENTY- EIGHT] What should you be doing right now?
sleep i guess.


(TWENTY-NINE)If you could wish for something over a birthday cake right now what would it be?
a job.

[THIRTY] What are you listening to?
nothing.

[THIRTY- ONE] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
My baby.


[THIRTY- TWO] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
no one.

[THIRTY- THREE] Do you act differently around the person you like?
nopez..but i do blush alot.

[THIRTY- FOUR] What is your natural hair color?
Black.

[THIRTY-FIVE]Who was the last person to make you laugh?
uncle.

Answer the questions and re-post as "My 35 Secrets"

hahaha.
dope.
xD

whats with people nowadays ?
freaking people going around disliking another person..
to think,i aint a floozie for goodness sake.
wth.


im missing people. effing.
figures ~

school hols suckz n i bloody cant wait till school reopens.

im trapped in the abyss of boredom n its killing me.

gee.

aneway hari raya haji was a blast. counting out the time i spent at nenek's house ofcoz. okei well , we head vivo to have a meal at pizza hut after droppin by nenek's . ya n shalam gave us a treat. we had to force them or else i dun tink i'll be given a chance to eat hawaian.

~zuee mcged on tat same day hoping dat we could hev a 'date' but its sad, tat ive alreadi have a plan goin on.

its juz dat hes off to dooms land* the day after. * National Service

n his hair! ~chopped chopped!

woob but he told me dat hes a MORONIC SURVIVOR..soo all HAIL..

back to the usual..

me n faz-okei again.

*u said dat u wont flirt wif those gerls in frensta..hope u stick to dat vows huh darls..ily

im starting to love him all over again jus like the song 'fall for you'

realli feels dat the song depicts our situation~
woob !

ok fer the second time faz had a sleepover in my crib last fri nite.

bfore we eventually slp~

faz teaches me how to olie usin feeq's skateboard at the bsketball court near my flat.

some random pix~

faz n me~

n now i cant wait to have a skateboard of my own
~INSYAALLAH.
skating is PRETTY SCARY OK.

ini random.

C=

okie well.
hav been hanging wif zuee's n clan at esplanade fer 2 straight days.
im tired.
n tat also means tat ive been going to gigs..
not harcore.-bleargh
First ever time to see The Pinholes performing.
n yeah.
i love The Sallys!
indie sia.
wee~
syafiq,feeq,noh,aok,venom n more was dere tooz.

n yeah.
fought wif faz.
n cant believe tat people were concerned..
fechichi,zuee,feeq,iswat..
tanx appreciate it loadz u guys.
=]

been rotting inside the house fer 5 straight days!
wee~
*clap hand
nyeehee.

ow ahh yes.
faz tau mengatal jek siak.
grrr!
gerammm.
no.
bleargh2.
i dun mind.
k wth.
nyeehee.
*random*


I cant wait till tmrw.
meeting and flying whipping,bey bey!
weee~
=p
lol.


K BYE.
xD

finished a book title 'Off Campus'
n was enthralled by some sentences there.
here it goes/

A new creed crystallizes in our mind?
this is what you'll do.
you feel low,you stand tall.
you mess up,you move on.
you want to try something, try it, and if it was a stupid thing to try, you look it in the eye.
there's no turning back.
you apologize if you're sorry,but know that the nimblest, stronger hands cant rebuild a bridge out of embers, so cut a new wood. start from scratch.
you love with your whole heart.
if you're jealous, talk yourself down from the ledge, have a good time up there, looking down into the world.
if you have to lie to make everything true again, lie like you mean it.
if you find yourself in a cage, reach out through the bar for the keys, unlock the door, and run away.
if running away gets dangerous, run home.
if home doesn't mean what it used to mean, decide what home will be in the future.
if your bestfriend says she doesn't trust u, hold her jaw in ur hand until it hurts, and make her face u.
thats all it takes.
if u tink you love a guy, see how his hand look at yours.
thats all it takes.
if u get exiled into a new land, then go discover it.
and if u feel like drowning, go swimming.
=]

aaaarrrrrggggghhhhhhh!!!!!
heartbeats beating so damn fazt right now.
ow well.
finally!
after days of thinking bout u n wen onli smile,occured on my lips..
seems like everyting was shrewed today.
fuck it!
erghh!
ok wait.
hmm..tink i care so much huh?
shiet mann.


tanx zeuu fer making this a lil bit less heartache.
im sure u dunno what uve done but anway~woob!

im in love with skateboard.
ohoh.
0.0

saw those pictures of the BVB?
isnt they HAWT?!
*slurp2!
okie well, still unable to download their songs.
fuck it.
boo~

retrieved back our reportbook earlier today.
results-soo 'destroyed'!

*i miss babylove~faz.

to Faz,Faz only.

i aint goin to create a tirade down here.

im sorry.

im not some gerl which is too obsessed with bikes.

its not fair,u know.

sori i didn bade you good morning like i usually do today.

i dun tink u wud want to hear anything coming from me too.

ily.

i really do.

*i didn let him to come near me n i was missing u the whole time.

bet u wont even believe tis sentence rite?

im rooottttiiinnng at home and its effin killing me.

what a contradiction when i was out the whole of last week(ok,not exactly WHOLE) n stucked at home right now.

someone ask me out plzz?

gosh

shrewed boredom!

okey.

hev u guys been to Admiralty Park?

im sure all the republic poly students been there bfore.

(coz ayim imparted to me that,thats where the rp students held their performance or something like that-im not so sure.)

theres a stage,a restaurant,a pond which i doubt theres million of frogs in it(which look contaminated in some way)and a going up stairs-sit.

its nice okie.

well,perhaps i think so.

was there with ayim last thurs night to chill.

i effin miss turnin up to gigs.

hardcore gigs to b real.

the last gig i went to was 'noiseNOVEMBER' and it was full of skinheads n rudeboys/gerls.

so dis also means that their genres were ska,skinhead song n idk wat its kol.

didn blend in wif their cultures but IT WAS A GREAT EXPERIENCE though,being surrounded wif skinheads,punk and the rudies.

went dere wif Zai,noh,taufiq n a whole lot more.

damn,i shud take pictures wif them nex tyme.

coz they genuinely look so UNIQUE.

n.

Zariin performing!

ow gosh.

tix at $5.

n hes not going to sing,(bet i cant listen to his voice,ever)

he goin to play the bass.

like faz,hes a bassist too herh.

cute guys~

i miss faz.

its sad tat i get to meet him only once a week.

maybe this long leash thingy is readily working soon huh.

BOO.=[

k till here.

darx!

xD

BOO.
im watching this 'ah kua' disc..
n
ITS EFFING FUNNY!!!
okie tak perlu bilang.
wee~

faz is infront of me-SLEEPING.
he seems so fatigue.
ok well~hes cute!
been chilling at my house since 12pm juz now.
glad hes here to entertain my boredom.
=p

clueless of wat to post actually.
boo.
till here.
xD

boo!


k like syaf,im back again~tooz



been tru a whole lot of freeaaking things lately
but im well pleased that all those juvenile thoughts doesn engulfed me.
okie wth.



someone i noe..suffered from STD.
Herpes to b exact.
didn realised dat STDs was DAT scarryy until i read bout it in 'women health for DUMMIES'.
its easy to be affected.
so people,avoid SEX plz.(or use condom atleast)






Talking bout relationship..
okie well me n faz is still going on as robust as bfore.
well frigging hope so.
complicated wth.
boo.



met up wif dis 'big guy' yest after months of silence.
hes not as big as u guys may think.
its juz dat he kol me 'bdk kecik'.
n yur cant escape from the fact tat im small~
gee.



me playing wif his ow-soo-awesome-expensive-electric-guitar. lol.
n dis 'big guy' told me that he wanted to buy me an acoustic guitar.
well 'Insyaallah'.Amin.=]


im bored.
theres no more books to read.
k wait,hev i mention dat ive been drowning myself in books n visiting the lib lately?
a lil bit eccentric but wah its a fact.
lol.
the motive was to improvised my eng capabilities for next year.
wee~

retained huh?
arse.
all of my frens was shocked upon hearing this news.
but on the other hand im glad tat i was given one more chance(one more year) to make some amendment to my grades.
the only subject i passed fer eoy was mt.
to think that i can be promoted-funny.

n people, how do we spell out the werd tat hev the same meaning as 'fucking'?
effen,effing or effin?
hmm.

k boo.
stay safe.
still loving faz.
haha.
tc!
xD

After a short but serious period of emotional upheaval, your life is finally going to start calming down. There could be one lingering drama that just won't die, but it will at least be small enough that you can ignore it for a while. This return to your routine is something quite welcome, and will make you appreciate the quiet joys of your life -- like having time to be bored! You'll enjoy having quiet moments by yourself, so try to get in as many as possible.

~boo!
believe in zodiac signs?
you guys should.
wakaka!

bleargh.
xD!

ever had an experience where someone u love,care,cherish,need-who brought happiness to ur life..
trying to attempt suicide n was already sitting with one foot over a ledge of a 12 storey flat n dats when u received a kol from them?
i have.
~what wud u do if all of ur werds was make deafen?
~how will u react when u r trying to give them advise but yet they labelled u 'mcm pham'?
~wat will u feel wen u feel tat u need them so much in ur life,but they self-centeredly juz think about themself?
~want them to mengucap n tink of god..but how will u spurt out all of this wen they already didn believe in God?
im speechless..n faded.
its too complicated.
='[

hes fine now. im effing glad. =']

n yurh.

i'll be retaining dis year.

its confirmed.

sec 3e again huh?

maybe its fer my own good too.

=/

effing fatigue after three straight days of house visiting.
todae's plan with the pri skul peeps was postponed to fri.
ouse visiting with cetee ninie n clan tmrw.
k darx.
im tired.
puff.puff.
x]

boo.
looking back at my archive n saw quite a poems which brought nolstalgic memories.
i would decribe this poems as mushy.
so those who hate mushy stuff u may evacuate from this page NOW.
=x

[composed by Faz]
first time he met her
never thought they'd be togeda
at night he's haunted by her
he wants her to be his forever
split open his heart and she'll see
how much she means to him
now she is his for sure
oh boy,she is his greatest treasure
without you the sun becomes deaf
to my plea for warmth
insecurity rips me like death
black as night black as coal
i wana see the suni wana feel the warmth
the sun goes downand i feel the light betray me
come down and save mefrom the dark apocalypse
and when the story starts
we'll go through every chapter
give me bliss to
complete this fairytale
and i'll love u forever
when she's gone he'll bleed
in misery he'll fade
syu i love you
syu i need you
now tat ur mine for good
your love i'll most treasure
and hurtin you i'll never ever.
i'll marry you
i'll bury you
i'll carry you to the end
believe me honey...

[composed by Syu]

i wan u to noe u make me hapi

i wan u to noe u created my theory

i wan u to noe u led my joy unfold

n lastly i wan u to noe,

u blind me of,glowin my soul.

ur cute serious face sparkle,

bringing curve lines to my face

there u are, u are my taste.

torment on my own was far gone

have tis faith tat my heart wont be torn

due to tis, due to dat

truly..im yearning for our nex kiss

u r too much for my incentives.

holding hard onto tis gripped

im becoming more stronger.

how do i explain these indigenous part?

damn,u r mine prom tart.

u've stole my heart..

n never deceived me right from the start.

if its the piercing brightness of ur eyes

it seems to b plotting a plot

it was u

it was faz

u juz cant get out from

my mind.

let entangled this web togeda

let us dance to tis song forever.

though dat bitchful agenda was like a mighty power

i knew my fate was lower

all these was for u to strive

i persevere n try to serve.

these prosperity treats was intricate to describe

may u hav a happy Valentine

i luv u cyg wif all my heart...

[composed by Faz]

remember the day tat changed our destiny?

me and my boys went out when we were confronted by someting pretty.

like the angels you suddenly appear,

you made all my conscience dissapear.

it wasn't like faz,it wasn't like me,

to fall heads over heels for you so easily.

but i did n never once regretted.

and come to think of it was dat day really fated?

but for 11 months we never let our feelings free,

till the worm feast on our hearts so hungrily.

up till then, neither of us had any clue,

day by day, both of us start to love the other through n through.

you waited four long months bfore she finally let him free

tried not to lie but confess you're the only one for me.

for 13 months you were left to rue,

wether or not to say the phrase ''i love you''

and wen it happened, it wasnt wat you expected.

the sea so calm suddenli overcame with tidals,

yet u held on to mast n got through the perils.

and when the sun appeared,your heart bacame cleared.

took me by suprise you did.

as i started to see how much u mean to me.

and so started a new chapter,

you lifted up the quil to end this chapter.

hurting me you promised you'll never ever,

you claimed me as ur greatest treasure.

and for tat syuhaidah bte zainol abidin dear,

i promiz to love u forever n ever...

[composed by Syu]

i was once told..

tat love doesn reali last.

bt why do i still put up wif it?

do i reali need u to b my kit?

i stared at the blank ceiling..

how shud i expressed myself?

how cud i expressed myself?

i am not force to continue this charade..

bhind tat smile lies a pessismistic soul.

for so long i try to fight wif this vicious crash..

though u were always dere..

u never were giving me tat extra pathetic care..

we definitely wasnt in a receptive mood..

how i wish i cud scream u for good..

u were killing me through..

what did u even do?

ting about dat..

coz i wont b here to tinkle to u bout this crap..

dunno if i cud still hold on to it any longer..

i tink i hev had enuf..

im sick..im alreadi to weak..

yet u still make me bleed..

overeacting it may seem..

but i juz dun care..

now i hope we r frens..

like the pass moment we shared..

[composed by Syu]

not another infatuation..

i was wounded by some vicious arrow..

wen the cupid was left stranded

wen all karma was left deafen..

i tried to find solace,wen i was left to rue...

sympathetically dere no one..

wantin to b my knight,shining armor..

woken up by tragic nightmares..

deres no more u..

for me to shed my tears too..

never knew how long the loving flame cud burn..

hev faith tat the wind wont blow me away..

im falling..n falling..

if only cud u see,how much ur needed,

how deep ur wanted..

i was walking carefully tru a dark boardwalk..

i miss the old days..

wen i was overjoyed to every letter of remembrance frm u..

like an egg my heart crack..

shattered into million pieces..

missing u due to any consequences..

we cant answer tis rhetoric agenda..

now my heart is pristine n empty..

i felt this way before..

its so insecure..

i need u so..i love u soo..

plz cum by..

ur the onli one tat stood in my heart.........

[composed by Syu]

seems like u dun miss me like the way i do bout u..

sory if im always clinging onto u..

can i sliced u open n steal back all my love from u..

coz misery i feel wen i tink about u..

i misses the time wen we were always 'me n u'..

wen i was bside u..

now im glad tat atleast i used to hev u..

is dere stil love in the air..tel me, wil u..?

if dere isnt,it wil be easier to frget about u..

ive created tis for u..

coz anew,im stil in love wif u..*

hahaha. END. xD

math suckzx.
i suck too.
=x

Ever wen through an experience when u feel as if your head wanna explode n blood seems to be streaming up to ur face?

i have.

-due to coughing.

lol.

people were concentrating onto finishing their papers while i was there trying to control this abrasive cough.

the worst thing was that the exam is being held in the hall.

gee.

stress sei.

apologies to all those people who was affected by the noise aiye.

if yur frustrated-i am EVEN more frust.

gee i kinda love having Mrs Quah to be our form teacher.

shes caring sia.

xD

K BOO.

met up wif MetalJawa yesterday.

went PasirRis for some mere revision.

dulu.

skarang.

*look at how we both change in time.

xD

Gee!

met up wif Faz too yesterday.

it was the first ever time i saw tears dripping down from his eye socket.

i care.

i love.

i need.

boo.

wee~

History exam tmrw.

i tink.

betta go n study bout Hitlerr now.

dADaRx~

xD

i wanna pierce my cheeks,like seriously..
boo.
i was captivated by Zuee's fake dimple.
xp

someone special, a friend so true

exactly the same,yet different from you

she knows your thoughts without a word

understands your feelings before they're heard

may drift apart,but remains near

in her heart she holds you dear

your secrets safe, your faults untold

a bond of trust she will uphold

so cherish her as she does you

for remember, you're a somebody, too.

boo.

came across this poem a few days back n suddenly felt the urge to 'publish' it inside my blog.

gee.

terase?

feels that im refering to you?

maybe huh?

k pape tu kaw peh pasal..haha

what i know is dat imy rite now.

=p

boo.
im back again after a few days of dissapearance.
n err.
(0.0)


reflecting back on my past days.



weds.
met up wif ninie,ct,syafiq n amir to break fast.
wee.. (some of the guys were unable to attend bcoz of certain reasons)
its been quite a while since we last met up wif them n to have an extremely joyful time together.
everybody is busy with school and life i guess. boo..
we ate at ljs and den planned to go fer a round of sheesha at bugis.
the first shop we wen to was atrociously mendak n they need to see an 18 years old ic in order fer us to smoke.
pathetic. but fuunnny tho!
unfortunately all of us were below 18 so thus we moved to another sheesha spot.
the second place was 'heaven!'
its called NABINS. (should go people!)
they doesn ask fer our ic n we even received a free drink.
cool huh?
to add on the 'heaven' part,the sofa was comfortable too..compared to the first place which we hav to sit on a carpet.(on the floor)
syafiq,ceetee,amir n ninie juz wont stop tickling my stomach with their absurd act.
juz couldn sit still heving them around.
jokers in the same roof,what more can we ask for?
huhu.


















thurs
met up wif fazly.
he came to teban straight after school to fetched me.
sweet? nahh.. =p
we had buke at the hawker centre near my crib.
its been quite some time i met up wif him also.
so glad that i can vent all of my missing-ness towards him on dat day.
gee.
the mist between us was a drab at first.
but everything was altered moments later.
n yurh.
as the results=im happy!
sng cakap its not fun going out wif him if hes in a foul mood.
bleargh.
~he took his precious time to wrote me a letter which he showed me tat day.
but it wasnt complete.
i hope tat it will never be finish coz he told me tat he tend to vent all his anger anger by writing those werds.
dis means that in order fer it to be complete, he,on the other hand,on tat certain moment, is angry wif me.
i dun tink im able to abide wif this wrath anymore.
k boo.

we bus-ed to machperson n bus-ed back home.
everything went great n smoothly until faz missed the last train home.
i couldn think of any other solution bside asking him to walk all the way to teban so tat i cn acompany him fer the night.
but ..................bla3............................................
..........................bla3...........................................
eventually we r OK again.

*prove to me tat our love is as robust as before ..

fri
back home from school at 1 pm.
drown in lala land till 6 pm.
head to jp wif my sisters tinking tat deres a swensen branch at dere-but dere isnt -.- at 7pm.
waste effort n energy, so we took a cab to imm at 7.30pm
ate swensen at 8.15pm as dere was a long queue outside.
adeq,kakti n abg izan went home first while me n ya lepak wif ya's fren at 9.30pm.
back home-d at 12.30 am.
kol faz at 3.10 am.
wen back to sleep at 3.30 am.
sleep3...

todae
was awaken by kakti at 8 am.
took a cab to serangoon at 10 am.
walk arnd serangoon n found nothiing till 12 noon.
ride a cab to geylang at 12.15.
walk arnd geylang to buy kakti's,abg izan n syaf costume till 3.30pm.
reach home at 4.10 pm.

boo.
[okeh da malas nk type.]


IM EXTREMELY FATIGUE RIGHT NOW.
n where in the world is aidil?
gahh.

sometimes i wish that i could juz turn back the time n mend all of my wrong doings.
Egoistic agenda kept on emerging whenever im wif him n thus no love was being shown.
ive tried to frget him,seriously..but nothing seems altered, i've hurt him,he've hurt me too..but all of it happened yesterday.. we cud be frens. infact all of my exes is still my friends. i wish we cud be like that too...
i knew dat tis day wud happened..still remember toking to him about it a few weeks back?
='[
im acting neutral now.but whats the point of acting OK wen im not.
might as well i spewed it all here coz i juz cant abide to impart it to him anymore.
boohoo.
i miss bundaii effing much.
='[
i hev no intention of clinging onto u again.
deep apologies.







how i wish i could open up my mind n realised dat studies is extremely important as so tat i wont always be absent from school juz like the previous semester.
VP, Mrs quah, the discipline mistress, n even the unit head has talked to abah about our lacking of attendance.
i asked mrs quah this morning if she feels tat syaf n me can be promoted this year..
n her answer was yes if we practice,practise and practise eng.
i wanna be promoted to sec 4e again lurh.
help me bundaii.
=/


okie yee.
going to hev buke wif ninie,ceetee,amir n the bbb, tmrw.
tak sabar.
da satu tahun tak buke togeda..but we did celebrate mine n ninie's bdae.
lamer sei tak jumpe.
gahh.
hope you guyz n gerlz can cheer me up..



klah.
till here.
xD

boo.

syaf n me never attend school todae after two weeks of no absence.
my own self ache n my temperature's rising.
n gee it hurts.
lol.


ur name appears in most of my post recently huh?
ur friends has been labelling me n gahh it'll stop rite now kan?
coz this will be the last phase in my time dat im going to mention ur name anywhere.

i doesnt know them yet they took their precious time to read my stories n confession then start giving irrelevant comments.
sedih.
wth freaks.




spare me.


i'll tend to lose in every of your speech attack.
coz ure juz too good at werds..n who am i to matikan bdk 18 years old.
juz a 15 years old kid with no experience?
i am no match fer you.
i dont hate u n neva will.
tanx fer the roller coaster ride.
ours were the hardest n enjoyable ride ever.
i'll grow up.
u too aite.
c ya arnd bundai.

*every good things will end eventually.


boohoo.
=]

solemn-isation over!
now back to the carefree syuu.
ooooowwwweeeee! ~cheers,baby!

am still confused over faz yearns.
am still missing his absurd character.
am still terrified too ponder about the future.
am still in doubt of guys THO.

boo.

after having an arduous moment regaining myself..i finally realised something.
i feel that im like turning into a toy sia.
falling into err.
("okeyla..i like you! but bluekx! i dunwan to be wif ue..wee!'' =p )
its like somehow im trying to decipher wats inside his heart hastily or censure him without even confronting him erh?
gee sorrie if my wild guesses aint true.
however,frankly..that is exactly how i felt towards this 'sgl and unavailable' thingy.
boo!


oritey den.
strolled along the busy road of geylang just now.
it was sweltering n my throat was suffering from ''i am thirsty syndrome".
managed to buy myself a costume which immediately caught my eyes the moment i step a foot inside the boutique.
i hate 'baju jolok' sei dats why.
syaf n ya is stil clueless of wat to buy.
boo its white in colour tho but anewae i love it baby!
the whole family will be wearin white this year.
guess we gonna look sacred erh?
lol


i was searching fer hari raya songs-techno version.
n i came across tis song which is on air in my blog page.
unless if u pause it, u cant hear the soothing tone urh.=.=
so plz enjoy the song as to so tat u will feel the anxiousness of tis festive season.
gee.
n guess wat.
todae is the last 10 days of tis year bulan ramadhan.
dat means todae or any days between 1 oct will be the nite of malam lailatul qadar..kan?
may god bless u guys.
=]

im stil munching to this ramly berger when my stomach is alreadi on the verge of exploding..
so i guess i wont be able to finish it lurh.
soo..any takers? sape nk?
haha.
im just fooling arnd k.
takde keje.

n toking abt keje,
im hoping tat i can be accepted in ya's werkplace.
gahh.
my eyes is yearning to see m shadow n to hear his voice real life.
gahh!


okie.
the today's horoscope to all piscesian/
~If you spend too much time thinking about another person's motivations, right now, you'll only get overwhelmed. You won't be able to predict what they will do next, so why even try? Let them be them and just focus on doing your thing. If you're waiting for them to make a decision before moving forward, then you're giving them way too much power. Go your own way, and if they want to come along they will let you know. It's not healthy to depend on someone to any great extent right now.~

macam paham sei.
=/


klah till here.
aku maseh sraiynadnug bundai.
it is juz so hard to resist this feeling.
0.o

o.0...

Ive tried so hard to let u go,but all my hardship were worthless because nothing seems altered.
Confused on how you managed to find the strength to abide with the dreadful consequences while im falling apart with no power left to endure...
Pictures of u just wont scarce away from my memories.
Its killing me softly and slowly.
Why must tis solemn fable be created?
Couldnt blame you to any of this happening fact because i was the one who was putting on a bravefront to put my heart and soul to this loveline when i knew it could end anytime soon.
You really caught me off guard.
Where did my knight in shining armor dissapeared to?
I wanted you here by my side, but it was just a contradiction.
I yearn for your affection again.
I know that your decision is set and i know that you cant reveal those horryfiying truth.
Chose to be oblivious and ignorant.
Maybe, ignorance is really a bliss.
I used up my precious time to ponder while writing on my school desk alone with silent cries echoes inside me..
why must this tragedy be happening?
Why must you let me go when it is the phase of time when i needed you the most?
Why can't i abreast with you like we used to?
I hold back my tears not wanting to show my sorrowful emotions to all my classmate.
Behind that smile lies a pessismistic soul.
You hated the word 'attach' while on the other hand, i hate the word single.
Lets be ''sgl yet unavailable'' you told me yesterday.
Why cant we just use the word 'unavailable'?
We r not officially attach from the start and you knew it yourself.
R u omsonent to commit for me?
Why r u so callous mean?
Im hanging by a thread now.
You told me that you'll always love me..so wats the pont of all this?
It doesn make sense.
And my heart is not convince that you'll be here with me forever like wat u assure me all this while.
Im yearning for your existance again.
From me who love you all this while.
To you with the sweetest smile.

boo.

we came late to school,again today,after a few weeks of 'no lateness'.

i was late fer the 10th time this semester.

but THEY seems to exaggerate things,like seriously.

Mr Sami kol dad up to complain abt this fact.

it was pathetic okeh.

i sympathise some of the lower sec kids wen ms fun,with her angry expression,shouted infront of their face.

asking fer reasons which she must alreadi heard of..''bus late..cannot wake up..etc''

those reasons were predictable but she still insist of knowing it.

ey hello.

it was not their intention to be late..

who wud wan to waste time n made themself to be detent kan?(unless they are absurd,ofcoz)..

gahh.

geram seii.

need to serve detention tmrw.

2 fucking hours.-1 hour fer eng while 1 more hour fer being late to school.

was exempted from math remedial n was out going to city hall n fullerton area.

not to shop neither walk around to have fun but we were dere to watch an art exhibition organised by the art foundation in s'pore.

dere were some flaws here n dere but all of the pieces was beautifully created.

those art pieces really motivate me to become a better artist.

ceyy. lol. 0.o

here r some of the impressive work done.

pictures are not perfect.

they look superb in real life though.

back home juz in time fer buke at arnd 6.50pm.

im omsonent rite now.

=[

*this tedi bear was found in an unattended manner.can the owner plz report to urs truly asap.

it is feeling lonely w/o the owner by it's side n this tedi effing miss its owner..

owner name: m.aidil.f.b.k.

nick:landak,bundai,carnage,fast,jerk.

DOB:20 feb 1990

POB:elexandra hosp

College:Rp

inform me if u found or saw him.

bcoz he is 'WANTED' by urs truly..

boo.

okie takde keje.

gee.

till here.

gudnite.

xD

boo.

i am clueless of what to post actually.
so i guess the content of this post will be dull,bland,irrelevant,sick.
[okey ini exagerating]
so..people, u guys may navigate from this page right now.

Bleargh.

have been hearing alot of commotion abt vnm to syaf to nur.
kecoh sak.
syaf has reali gotten over him but idk why nuriha is still holding some grudges towards him.
gahh.
im glad tat atleast venom had manifest what syaf has been trying to decipher wen they were both 'intact' tho..
but it was 'one month too late' dun u tink so venom?
k peace.
anewae.
i miss listening to ur absurd joke tho.
heh.
xD


A7X IS COMING TO TOWN!!
why must popular artist come to singapore wenever im jobless or shud i say 'POKAI'.
walaoeh.
i wanna go laa!!
cnfirm gerek erh?
gahh!
tix at 95 and 110 bucks.($)
performing at Max pavilion spore expo.
for more details plz visit www.sistic.com.sg. =]
lol.
advertising siak.
haha.


school.school.school.
hasnt been skipping school since the term start.
guess me n syaf is really putting our heart n brain to focus during lesson nowadays.
espcially during english lesson.
math too.
gee.
n alas!
i understood all about the sine rule,cosine rule and bearing thingy.
some topics is a headache still.

n thus this means tat i need fauzee to tutor me in math just like last time.

thanx to him,i still remember how to solve the simultaneous equation which was a total pain in the ass.

we'll go out fer a mere revision soon yee.

xD

monster faz have a hectic schedule to fulfill today.

pity him but im convince that he will put up with the incoming obstacle no matter wat.

he seems so fatigue yesterday when he was at my house.

he doze off at my 'sofa' while playing the lappy,leaving it unattended with the switch still on.

he snored. his mouth was 'wide' open and thus showing his teeth.he perspire like as if there was an ablaze building a few feet away.

it was funny n cute.

n it was effing arduous to wake him up.

gahh.


klah.
till here.
im somnolent.
xD

gawdd!
i effing love my new friendster layout!
wee.
a pink skull was attached to the background.
but one sad thing is that all of my pictures was in black n white n thus we have to navigate it so tat the colour will emerge.
but wtv the matter is..
its beautiful mann.
i tink.
xD


Reached home at 2.45 am yesterday to see that dad was inside the kitchen preparing fer sahur while mum were sitting at the dining table waiting fer me n ya's returned. they didn scold or yelled at us like most parents will do. but we could see the dissapointed expression which they put up. a cane stood by mum's side. it was left unattended. seems tat the cane is not doing its job. it was supposed to move,whacking me n ya so tat red marks would be left behind on our skin.

me n ya was outside, exploring the night life in s'pore with Faz. we wen to vivo,somerset,passed by yp,orhard road and dhoby ghout. we saw many high maintenance singaporeans and tourist having a fun time drinking cocktails and beers. Loud music was blasted from pubs n ktvs.

thus,it reminds me of kl. Chivas cafe, the first ever pub ive been to. we drank,smoke n listened to the soothing remixes from the dj. it was one memorable experience.

blister arise like a troop of dead army on my legs. the pain was pricking my nerve n mood. i became frustrated n thus pulled a long face infront of them. i was not the usual syu. faz tried to cheer me up but i told him to stop. crazy.

okie.
skip3.
not intending to write an essay.
lol/

faz haven replied to my mcg..n im gettin freakingly worried rite now.
gahh.


hev not been fasting fer the last two days.
im lazy.*sin.


kla.
till here.
xD

im stressed.
face is suffocating with the emerging oily substance.. [eeuuw.xD]
i just cant find the charger to this fucking camera.
on the other hand, this also means that i cant upload all my new pictures.
pw8 is currently low.
i hate my english language. verbs..vocab..tenses etc.
i tend to get intimidated by other bloggers..they use superb english while im juz using all the basics. have been reading dictionaries and books but it seems tat my eng foundation is still as weak as before. how confident can i get to pass my english for tis coming eoy? will i get retained? i sounded pathetic huh. lul. but its true,my english is sooo weak. aku sedih. 0.0


im missing Faz all over again. Yearning to meet him today coz its been quite a while since we wen out with juz the two of us. im juz reflecting back abt the nolstalgic days we've been tru togeda. [these werds are meant fer him.only him.=]
days n days flew by..n i feel tat u r really dat someone whom i could pour all my solace n sorrow to. we've been friends ever since, i know all abt ur past. u noe all abt mine. uve seen my pesimistic side,violent attitude,sarcastic ways..basically uve seen it all. n ur the only fellow who know me more than others do. still remember the first ever time we met. u were dere,sitting all alone not wanting to join in ur frens in taking those neoprint. 'hello' was the first werd u impart. wif juz a blink of an eye, a few months pass. u came back asking about my well-being. i just broke up wif hakim.[we r frens now.xD]n u told me tat u had fyza. it was such a blow wen i find out tat u was taken. showing the sluttish side of me n u being the jerkiest person on earth, we ditched her. leaving her to rue on her own. u broke up wif her juz to be mine. from a7x 'warmness on te soul' to secondhand serenade 'fall for you' season,u was always there to bid me gudnite. we've been tru thick n thins togeda. cant believe tat we r still in hand n tat our r'ship is still as robust as bfore even tho we've broken up twice. i love you wif every growing days. n being apart wif u these days is always heartbreaking. [sounds familiar huh,coz i felt the same way too]. n now im so glad of heving u in my life. thanx fer bringing in laughter smile to this living soul.
ily,iny,iwy.


ok.
dabez.
xD

ola peepos.



deres birds flying arnd my head.(headache duhh)
effing fatigue heving to be in the school fer the 'whole day'.
math remedial was a lot of help.
syaf was thinking to skipped it at first.
but i managed to spewed some mini lecture to her ear n thus we reversed back to class.
ilovemathlurhh.-walaupon my results hev been bad all along the semester.
but i pass ca2 tho.
woop.
xO

Bundaii is currently by my side in my living room.

weee~

we had buke togeda a few minutes ago.

k IM out of werds.

n i need to complete the HeyMath thingy.

so.

bye.

xD

great!
2 more hours to go bebeh.
why the hell am i counting down the time?
its pathetic.
gee.
*stomach grumbling.(n it is loud oii)


school was okeh juz now.
1hr of math lesson..1hr of putting head on the table n off to lala land..30 min of relaxing the mind n spend some time reading some books...1hr30min of english..30min ft period..n 40 min of physic remedial..
n i juz realised dat i didn moved away from my sit frm the strt to the end of class lesson.
my butt were glued.
i didn even walked arnd the class.
woah.
lamer2 pantat bole flat seii.
lol.
mrs quah gave each of us a planner earlier juz now.
a planner erh?
wth.
it was for us to plan abt how or wen we must do some revision during our free time.
dunno why but i hate heving a planner.
stress taw.
coz i tend not to folow those planned activities.
n yeah.
received our e.o.y schedule alreadi.
first exam starts on 3 oct.
cepat ehk?
gahh.


*saw ninie while walking under the covered walkway to j.east entertainment. lamer tak nmpk. we chat. i miss her n ceetee laa.


currently watching the tyra bank show.
imagine heving a co-worker or someone biting off the tip of ur nose till u need a total reconstructive surgery...
seram kan?
does people reali becomes a lunatic wen they were fuming wif anger towards someone?
gahh!


didn hev a chance to met up wif faz todae.
so sorry bundaii.
iloveyoulots.
n i effing miss u rite now.....
=[

the sensuous aroma of the spicy curry coming out from the kitchen is tickling my nerve n patience.
gahh.
lapar beb.
oops.
=x

the last few daez ended up with an endless loop of wooo n weee!.
n i juz realised dat guys can be effing sweet or even be a pain in the ass at times.

okey.
reflecting back to the days ive been through.
thurs-received a haircut from faz after buke togeda at my crib. now my hair looks eery n weird. haha. i love it. hmm. (head nodding)
fri- faz became lunatic n climb up a rooftop at nuriha's block. (video below). ate buke wif faz n shalam arnd at my crib again. lepak3 wif him until the sky turned dark n late.


sat-fetch faz from yishun. helped him to carry his guitar n head back to teban. faz n shalam buke wif my family again. we ate pizza hut. (aku rindu bdak2 ph j.east lurh -.-)
sun-was planning to hev buke wif faz but last min plan nk kene buke umah nenek..-.-.....

faz name seems to be scaterring all over my post..

faz..faz..faz..

went head over heels towards ue..

arghhh..

bom.

im falling.

hahaha.

ilhsm.

k bleargh..
where the hell is dat venomous..two legged creature?
suddenly dissapeared out of sight n hearing.
i cant bear looking at syaf walking arnd the house wif that sulky face n solemn attitude.
ok bedek.
shes fyne now,i guess.
where r u venom?.
u reali caught her off guard.
gee.

i cant wait fer holidays lurh.
i wanna dye my hair.
i need more extensions.

i miss faz.
NOTT. (this is a lie)
xD

fcking asshole.
im drowning again.
the uncure wound was bleeding.
multiples excuses has emerged.

fuck.fuck.fuck.

xD

felt like theres something heavy trapped or sitting on my head.
effing headache sia.
ate two tablets of paraceptamol alreadi but it doesn seem to ease the pain.
gahh!
i wanna faint.

zzzZZZZZ.

SURVEY I'D STOLE.

FACT: About the person you fell hardest for?
errr...
WHAT: Happened at 9:00 am today?
lala land. huggging b.b.
ARE YOU:Wearing something you borrowed from someone?
nahhh.
WHAT: Is the last thing someone bought you?
a mc chicken meal.
WHEN: Was the last time you saw number 2 on your top friends?
soon as i open my eyes.
WHAT'S: Your current problem?....
to pass eng n get promoted to sec4e.
LAST: Person to lay in your bed?
me.
THE LAST:Food you ate?
cornflakes.
SOMETHING:You say when you are mad?
fuck sial? gee..
DO YOU: Delete people off of myspace?
naope.
FAVE:Drink?
sugarcane juice..
DO YOU : Crack your knuckles?
nooope.
DID YOU:Cry at all today?
haven.
ARE YOU: Ticklish?
not so very.
WHO WAS: The last person you talked to last night before bed?
ya n adeq.
HAVE YOU MADE:A mistake this past week?
guess so erh..
DO YOU: Miss someone?
definitely!
DO YOU KNOW:Anyone with the same name as you?
yup2.
WHEN WAS: The last time you really laughed?
yesterday. wif faz sickening jokes.
HAVE ANY:Regrets?
hmmm..who duns?
DO YOU USE: An alarm clock?
yup.
ARE YOU: Social or antisocial persn?
a little of both.
DO YOU: Have a tan?
no?
WHO WAS THE LAST: Person to disappoint you?
landak. =.=
DO YOU TRUST: People?
some.
WHAT ARE YOU DOING:Tomorrow?
nothing.
Had a loss recently?
nope. hope not.
Last movie you watched?
Prom nite
Something you want to accomplish in the next 5 years?
i'll be 20..so diploma i guess.
When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
wow. lol.
How much cash do you have on you?
20 cents. weee~
What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
fucking "whore"
What's the last thing you said outloud?
huh?!
Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
nur-e-ha.
What is your favorite ring on your phone?
Bree! Bree! by Brokencyde.
What shirt are you wearing?
a long dress which makcik2 usually wears at home. heh.
Do you "label" yourself?
nopez.
Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
im not wearing any.
Bright or Dark Room?
both.
How old are you?
im 15.
What were you doing at midnight last night?
gettin redi to slp.
What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
... . ... .. .. .... . ... buke.
Where is your nearest 7-11?
juz a few blocks away.
What's a word that you say a lot?
ntah erh...hmm..
Who told you he/she loved you last?
Faz-zy.
How many drugs have you done in the last 3 days?
juz 1.
How many rolls of film do you need developed?
i dun develop pixtures.
Favorite age you have been so far?
pri 5. 11 years old.
Your worst enemy?
dun need one.
What is your current desktop picture?
Barbie wearing a wedding dress.
What are you craving?
sec 4e.
If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
fly.in order to get to the million bucks.
Do you like someone?
yeup.
The last song you listened to?
in tis club-usher feat beyonce


k tc.
xD

gooood moornniing Buundaaiii!
weee-
woke up wayy early this morning..
reasons=deres physic remedial tat i need to attend too.
irritating erh.
seriously.
haha.
sori mrttc.
weee-

the sun had risen.
but it does not seem to b piercing tru my living room window.
im alone outside.
im scared.
okie lol.
hev been encountering weird nightmares lately.
so i guess tat i hev not been sleeping well too.
gahh!



OKIE.
sorry if i didn reply to ur comment faz.
gee.
its obvious that im clueless of what i wanted to impart.
boo.
xD

2nd day of puase..
yet i cant went through it like the others.
fucking shiet huh?
gahh!
but i still woke up to have sahur though.
lol.

okie meeting fazly today.
teman-ing him to search for a new job.
he asked for a resignation out of the pit of anger yesterday.
skip3.

just quarrelled with syaff.
it was about the previous post.
about the sentence..
''its FAITH i guess"
she tried to correct my english by saying that FAITH was unsuitable for that sentence and we should replace it to FATE instead.
wtf.
dictionary check=faith
–noun
1.
confidence or trust in a person or thing.
Both words is suitable kan?
wtv.



klah.
tc!
xD

changed to a new blogskin again..
OMG.
Its Audrey Kitching baybyy!
hehehe.
my song became RnB too.
sudden change,huh?
lul.


sheeesh!
past frens whom've been absent from my life came back or hev been texting me lately.
n its getting petty annoying.
espcially Apiz..plz..stop it..ur mcges aggravate me urh.
gahh!
n juz wana inform dat my pw8 is currently $0.00$
apologies fer nt replying to all of ur mcges.
peace.


owkey.
im back to being OK wif Faz.
didn expect it to happened.
our 'relazione' was still as robust as bfore.
well its faith i guess.
so glad tat his vengeance as a manifestation of anger receded.

"heh..i knew u wont stay angry with me fer long.
biasa ar..kate faz kan.. (im one forgiving person lurh..nk angry lamer2 uat pe sei..takde keje. -.-* n its not bcoz 'kate faz kan ehk' gahh!)
waakakakaka!!
know wat?i cried wen i read the msgs u sent in msn.... (dats the motive baby..to c tears falling down ur eyes..wakaka. evil laugh.)
=_=
haiz....
k truth is..i dunno wat got into me..
i was flaming and my rage was like an endless eruption..
haiz..
tink i need to go see a psychatrist real soon..
who knows i might need to start taking medication like toyol? (plz..ur not dat insane faz..n i didn mean tat toyol was gilerr lurh)
haa..

ermmmm...errrrr......
do i need to be on my hands and knees to beg u to come back?
cos dat wud be straining my knees, toes and my ego.. (egoistic agenda is on the rise..woo!)
=p
k wtf..
fer ur sake i'll do it..GRRRRRR...!!

im looking forward to buka puase one day.. (yurh me too..)
Hint Hint Hint..

wakakakakaaka!!
oi..!ape senyum2?ingat aku tk tau?sepak muker kau aru tau. (come slapped me again jerk..so dat i can do it too,again! xD)
MuaHAHHAHAHHAHAAH!!

dammit i wan u real bad ryte now.. (Syu pondering...)
k i know tis is kinda stoopid. (tau takpe bodoh! xD )
but i was at wraths end wen i got to know tat pram or watever his name is gave u a ride back home..
and u KNOW i hate dat.
now u owe me an explanation. (doned)
HMMMPPHH!! "

freaking lazy to reply to his comment or even step into his profile.
so dis is all the werds tat i wanted to convey tru dis comment dat he sent.
i guess.



juz realize dat my latest few posting was kinda long erh..
reasons=i wanna improve my eng people.
Help me u english geeks!
uat pe dpat distinction fer o's tapi tknk share knowledge kann.
gahh!
u noe who u r dear.

klah.
tc.
xD

poops! helloo xD


wen to baybeats again yest..
nuriha was around this time round.
it was fun OFCOZ!
woo!
we reached dere quite a bit late so managed to watch the shows which performed from 8.30 onwards..
8.30pm=
FASPITCH.
a band from phil.i tink.
hxc gilerr!
they reali noes how to make the gig-goers became crazy!
the impact was overhelming.
despite the muddy ground,people stil moshed,body surfed n even doing the hxc dance.
like usual we wud stand juz a few feet from the stage..
so the moshers hit on us again.
thus our shoes n legs was filled wif mud stains.
n iT was REALI MUDDY.
sheeeshh!
=.=*
felt very satisfied tho coz only those who moshed or stood infront tends to get their shoes dirty.
lol.
there were security guards..a few guys were taken out.
it was a total chaos!
okie im exagerating.
woop!
guess venom was reali enjoying his butt out yest..
he *body surfed..moshed..
woah mcm cool gitu sei.
it was so sweet of venom's sis n her fren to be very protective for the three of us.
so glad tat there were protectors.
hehe.


saw AK again,Syafiq N Spec too..
we tegoh n we tok..



didn go to baybeats todae bcoz of some certain reasons.
gahh!
okie skip2.


Syaf made ya cried a few hours ago.
wen i saw her she was lying on the floor crying.
she seems to b in a lot of pain.
seriously.
pity her lurh.
reasons wat bcoz dat..
ya playfully played arnd wif a rotan..
she rotan syaf.
she tried to rotan syaf again.
syaf was furious.
she took ya's hand..twist it..
ya punched her..some part of her nose bleeds.
thus syaf took the rotan from ya's hand.
den immediately she whacked her violently.

ya's back. okeh bra strap tak penting ehk. o.o
[tilt ur head]


kakti sound syaf after getting to noe bout tis fact.
mak plak cakap "asal tak pkai pisau skali..?"
lol.

k wtv.

bsok puase baybee!
woo!
the way tat the spore mufti anounced bout tmrw is fasting day was so touching lurh..
cant wait to buke wif ninie ceetee again.
insyaallah.
xD


Faz sent me two comment todae.
didn hev the courage to even took a peek at it at first..
im scared tat it wud hurt myself again.
so nuriha was the first one to read it.
the content was touching..a comment dat doesn made my heart bleed..
sort of like tat urh.
im juz so glad that he ask fer an apology.
im juz so confuse..soo insecure n im clueless of wat going to happen to me rite now.
he told me tat he hate me two days ago.
memories of us haunt me every nite.
okie dammit.. i miss him rite now!
erghhh!!
=/


klah.
tc people.
xD

woah..okeh de last few days was a total roller coaster ride!

n every ride will end eventuali..

soo..im preety glad tat this scary ride has ended.

to be in a roller coaster was scarrryy oi.

lol.

gahh!

nmpknye sgl alek aku nie.

haha.

yesterday was truly the blasting rocking day ever!

wen to baybeats wif syaff at arnd 8 pm as the other two rangers were lazy.

we r late so we missed out 2 of the shows.

gahh!

reached dere at arnd 9,20.

met up wif venom n gang.

ayim reach moments later.

we managed to watch force vomit n typecast.

force vomit was OK.

bt the respond from the viewers was not as hyper as typecast.

typecast rock mann!

the vocalist screams..n woo totlly rawcking!

the exciting part was dat we were juz a few feet from the stage..

n dat means dat we r putting ourself inside the moshpit area.

n yurh me n syaff was totally moshing to the beat from typecast.

its like we r being pushed everywhere..struggling to keep both our feet upright..not in secure of ourself..able to relieve the stress in our brain..n blah3..

despite feeling scared at first..i was so proud tat ive just conqured my fear of moshing.

there were hardcore dancers..body surfing too.

venom's sis told us to stay out frm the hardcore dancers area as it was 'strictly for guys'.

hardcore dance looks so damn brutal.

but anewae..

gerek siak.

lol.

wee..

going to baybeats again todae.

tmrw also insyaallah.

hee.

ok well.

saw AK n Wok at dere too.

AK tegoh us.

hev a chat wif him fer a while before heading back to the stage area.

maxx..moi frensta fren,saw me also.

juz cant believe tat he recognised me altho kite tak pena meet.

woo.

Breym gave me a ride home yesterday.=]

bez la kann naek motor!

Sesat skejap jek.

sheeesh!

xD

waited fer syaff n venom to reach teban..

so me n ayim sat on the edge of a road.

they reached.

we lepak3.took pictures.

wen suddenli something scary occur.

flapping was heard.

dogs howling.

a woman's voice wooing.

bangla running dunno fer wat reasons.

'it' was like so near to us.

my legs were trembling the whole time..felt so cold.

thus ayim n venom told us to chill n act as if nothing happened.

so glad tat me n syaff didn saw aneting weird..

but ayim saw it tho.

time check=1.30 plus am.

scary huh?

here are some of the pictures tat we took..

weeee-

posing beb. haha.xD

Me n breym aka ayim aka jts.
xD

Watch dis video people.
the lady in black cool shiet mann !
woo.
haha.
xD
n i noe video ini antique.=]

it happened again.
karma huh?..
frankly..u doesn need to told all abt it to her.
tak perlu.
if wat u were doing was rite..
i wouldn hev tegoh or be pissed wif u.
doesn need to tell her about u reading my blog.
the post was not meant to hurt u or aneting close to it.
it was juz meant for u to ponder..reflect back abt wat wrong uve doned.
but if u still tink dat ur not in the wrong..im speechless.
cut down ur egoistic agenda plz.
erm..but yet u told her "nah..who cares." in her comment.
great faz.
dat is truly hurtful.
now i realli noe the real u.
tanx.
u r juz a jerk,hypocrite guy.
plz change for the sake of ur nex one..
n yurh.
tell her..if only she was in my shoe.. let see how she will react.
its easier for her to say since shes not the one experiencing it.
n tru all the feedbacks i received,deres no boifiee who wud do tis kind of hurtful stuff to the person they love.
its like so downgrading.
its not as if im a 13 years old gerl who is so naive..giving in to whom she love.
i hev always been giving in to u.
i hev always love u n yearning to hev another meeting wif u.
but in a split second u wanna let me go.
thru a comment lagi.
i was shocked.
tried very hard to regain myself in front of tis lappy.
i was hoping u wud say sori or aneting sweet by the two cmnt u sent.
but no.
tears trickling down my cheeks while typing dis shit.
i hope ur happi.
n yurh.
justthesky was juz my fren.
venom fren.
n he care.


n kakti ngah kite sume da uat plan smlm nk makan buke togeda ramai2 one day..ya wif shalam.adeq wif venom.abah ngan mak.kakti wif abg izan.wa ngan faz. i was extremely excited. looking forward to dat day. but i guess dat day is not going to happen huh? ....

ive enlarge the font.
for ur sake,so tat u doesn need to squeeze ur eyeballs juz to read wat ive wrote.