muke-muke WANTED.

hahaha.xD

*cross refer to post 19 feb.

8 more days!
cant wait! cant wait!
woo.
xD

sat
bought a new school shoes while Syaff bought a new school bag (n dat's why my shoe is extra white todae =p)
nurr , ya n faz tagged along.
each me n syaff were given 60 bucks from mum to spend on those necessities , yea now im left wif 2 bucks.
woohoo.

sun
was chatting wif Ficky wen suddenli he ajak to go k'oke wif yan, zai n kam. (i tink so.)
i agreed since basically ive no chores at home n its been quite a while since i met up wif ficky n the rest.So the last minute fantasize plan became a reality but only ficky n yan turned up. we headed to Grandlink. i was given a choice so instead of singing we changed plan n played pool. yeah it was fun.
yan conquered each of the game. first set was between me n yan . i lose wif one ball left. i was leading when suddenli yan's luckiness strike. damm it.
followed by yan n ficky. ficky lose. me n yan again. i lose, again. nex ficky n yan , ficky lose. den the last game was between me n ficky. I LOSE , YET AGAIN.
nyehh it was amazing overall. woo!
yan n ficky invite me to lepak wif them later that nite at j.east wif their friends. But i head straight home knowing that i'll get tired in school the next day. so yeah. mit up again soon guys!

i immediately changed n went straight to bed upon reaching home. k im tired to type in eng.
ok go malay.
tgah dalam syok mimpi2 tibe2 an unknown no called. so after a few moments of alter confusion between us finally itu iswat daa. dier tgh lepak ngan his fren kat bawah my block so he thought nk ajak wa turon. i didnt. tido pon baek. yeah.

school was fine.
i failed my chem.(which i tot was easy.lol.)

k abg izan is reaching home in a few min.
gotta go.

n bby !
ariel tanye hav u learn higinia,the guillotine,her portrait in black n fire of night yet?
gahh.
imy.
nyehh ily too.
xD


k daa.

the power of editing^^nyehh~

focus on my eyes , unique erh?

one side is small while the other side is big.

woo.

hepppiii 19th bdaaaaeeeee muhd AIDIL fadzly !!!

cyg dier bnyk2.

woo.

*

went ctylink juz now.

saw firoifir n naufal whom i havent met since last dec.

okey. n firorfir hair is hawt.
woo.
n i hate that fucking short-hair-gerl from a different coterie,effing much!

erghh.

*

i failed my physic. 17-35.

n history.7-15.

by a mere 1/2 a mark.

im so unlucky.

*

a poem tat faz did 1 year ago which was found im my archieve.

omg hes at my house ryte now yet im still missing him.

aku weird.

remember the day tat changed our destiny?
me and my boys went out when we were confronted by someting pretty.
like the angels you suddenly appear,
you made all my conscience dissapear.
it wasn't like faz,it wasn't like me,
to fall heads over heels for you so easily.
but i did n never once regretted.
and come to think of it was dat day really fated?
but for 11 months we never let our feelings free,
till the worm feast on our hearts so hungrily.
up till then, neither of us had any clue,
day by day, both of us start to love the other through n through.
you waited four long months bfore she finally let him free
tried not to lie but confess you're the only one for me.
for 13 months you were left to rue,
wether or not to say the phrase ''i love you''
and wen it happened, it wasnt wat you expected.
the sea so calm suddenli overcame with tidals,
yet u held on to mast n got through the perils.
and when the sun appeared,
your heart bacame cleared.
took me by suprise you did.
as i started to see how much u mean to me.
and so started a new chapter,
you lifted up the quil to end this chapter.
hurting me you promised you'll never ever,
you claimed me as ur greatest treasure.
and for tat syuhaidah bte zainol abidin dear,
i promiz to love u forever n ever...
ily cyg.

the end.
aww..=/

Hepppppiiii B'daeee kakkk Erliii!

woo.

im fatigue.

was forced to view the volleyballs' final today.

n damn, shuqun volleyballers were effing GOOD!

we emerged as champion fer most of the division.

n yurh we had fun laughing our ass out at cck stadium, entertained by aisyah's absurd act.

haha omg do the sawan clap again!!

gahh!

we also received our ic size photograph.

everbody was complaining bout how ugly they looked.

too bad that my scanner isnt weking or u guys may see each of our horrendous faces.

haha.

nyehh~

ya and me walked all the way from Bugis to Mustafa centre yesterday.

jaoh erh , definitely.

our aim was to search for a helmet , but eventually all the shops was close as we went out of the house at 6.30 pm.

met up with bby too at ctylink whilst he was skating wif acip, feeq n some others.

yeah.

imy boo.

again.

wen i adressed someone as "kau" , it apparently means tat the r'ship we shared is nothing basically, wif no feelings attached on it's surface. so i dont get how you can jump to conclusions n thus being uptight about the previous post. if we're heving this tiff just because i mentioned about him, guess u're juz wasting ur time coz i wont abide to censure u anymore or to beg for ur forgiveness. i wont betray ur trust. i told u i wont ride any guy's bike ever again n im still standing on that term. i spend my days in school and at home. all ive been doing is homeworks n reading some shitty books almost ALL DAY. i led my handphone to be dead,too. there! its all about you now in my life! yet u r still treating me dis way..
erghh! cut me someone.

OMG.
my friendster is DEAD. for real.
maybe, im juz too lazy to reply to ppls' comment n dont freaking bother to add ppl up OR perhaps i hev a hideous pic/face?
maybe its all of the above.
lol. i dont care.
nyehh~
should i just delete it n get it over with?
wa pondering~


anyway, whre in the world is Farouq?
he told me."pape on tues aku kol kaw"
till now, i haven received a single ring from him.
buey sia. Bagozz.
nyehh~
ow well. i dont care too. tido pon baek.
we actually planned for a meet-up-session..
n it was supposed to be today!
its been a few month since ive met up wif him n he confessed that he misses me.
soo, why not meet up ryte? apparently ive nothing to do at home anyway.




1 week 2 days n still counting.
should i fall down to my knees n beg so that i cud meet up wif u,boo?
imysm n im confused of what my feeling is right now, anger or hurting by every sec?
doesnt it bothers you about the way our r'ship is fading?
or is it juz me?
remember the wish that u told me while the new year fireworks were booming on the sky?
it was so sweet till i felt like crying on that certain moment.
i am trying so hard n i jus need u to prove it to me that u still care.help me laa.


i am freaking glad that i can juggle my outside werld from my schools'.
im improving.last year terok gilek.
yey.*jumping wif joy urh!


ok daa.

date wif huda , aisyah , seri , Nur n syaff went perfectly well yesterday.

funny.

especially the dog-catching part.

hahaha omg lucu sia!

i noe , they noe.

woo.

me , nur n syaf headed to cthall soon after aisyah n huda left.

ok so ,28th feb plak kk.

seoul garden! xD

i miss faz.

=[

• went to Aisyah's crip straight after school today. we watched dvd n did more stuff. it was great ! woohoo.
  i feel that i ate alot but my weight still insist from gaining a few more kilograms. any tips of how to gain wt ppl? gahh.
  


• history test was fine but the time given seems to be a lil bit too constraint.i hope i'll pass. *crossfinger
  
• yeah.im eager to go out tmrw.
  
• i fucking miss this 'slengeh face' boyfiee of mine.erghh!

visited the parliament house today.it was awesome to finally saw most of the minister having their political talks.n i saw Eunice Olsen. nyehh. shes preety laa oi. i envied her as she was elected by Mr President to be a part of parliament's constituency. shes young too. cool shiet.

saturday !
its valentine's day yet i aint spending my time wif faz. hmm. i hope hes fine wif it. we'll make up for dis day k bby . i can assure u dat. err, myb.xD
outing wif the gerls instead.
im stressing about wat to wear!
erghh!ape erh? hmmmm.
apparently-
i hate to wear heels , so dress is totally OUT.
i hate to wear shoes, so shoes is impossible too.
i hate wearing slippers jugakk .
ala..stress siakkz.
kaki ayam suda kann.
woo.


ok anyway im glad everything between us is fine now.well, seems like every issue will eventually end wif a blissful ending.its so predictable yet soo hurtful to start with.no more fighting k boo.im tired.effing fucking extremely tired. ily.


i miss someone.-----. go figures!

im trying utterly hard to resist the temptation of sending you a message or giving you a call.
I hev no idea of how to ease the tension between us, anymore.
erghh.
help me.

nyehh~

juz came back from town wif bby , acip n feeq.
yea.
dorang due2 reborn rmbut la seii..
gahhaha.
lawa2!

bby's face is gettin fine by days.
Alhamdullilah.
He uses OXY 10 n left it overnite fer 2 straight days.
now his face look sunburned.
tulahh.
bodoh peh bundai!
nyehh~
ily!
weee..
hehexD




kk wa da ngantok.
nari skola.
5 mre hours to go.
bye!
xD

webcaming wif Abu Zarrin.
alala.
aku boring.
nyehh~

ive no mood to go out.
reasons is that i doesnt hev any decent footwear to wear.
pathetic.


7 march come faster can?

ya forget to inform me tat ficky mcged.
thus i didnt went out wif him today.
my sumptuous meal seiii..
gahh.
kk takpe nex tyme.


Faz juz went out to meet hidz n cohetie.
he slept over again yesterday night.
ala imha. (i miss him already)

i miss this ^^

ok bye.

tried calling him millions of time but to no avail he refused to answer.
dumbfounded, i head to my bed n
drowned myself wif the fantasizing content of Breaking Dawn.
wen suddenly my eyes turned droopy..
dere came a knock on the door.
he came.~wif a 'flower' on his hand.
-wen i least expected it.
ily bby.


im currently infront of the lappy wif a toncet in my head.
nyeehee.
stayed back after school n had laugh wif the regular.
it funny coz ive never stayed back in school fer the last 3 years.
pathetic, i noe.


i love math.
i effing love faz.
i fucking love my friends.

ficky owes me a meal.
yay yay.

nyehh~xD

hev yet to reconcile bout everyhing that has happened yesterday.
i need ciggies to burry me from all this thrashy thoughts.
anyone? someone? can i hev a stick plz?



well i was reading thru my archieve and my eyes were caught to this poem ive created last year'

ive tried so hard to let u go

but my hardship was worthless,

because nothing seems altered.

confused on how u managed to find the strength to abide wif the dreadful consequences

while im falling apart wif no power left to endure.

pictures of u juz wont scarce away from my memories.

its killing me softly n slowly.

y must tis solemn fable be created?

couldnt blame u to any of tis happening fact

coz i was the one who was putting on a bravefront

to put my heart n soul to tis loveline which i knew it cud end anytime soon.

........

okey im too lazy to type.

but if u guys bother to read on , click on archieve*at the top n CLICK ON sebtember.