poops! helloo xD


wen to baybeats again yest..
nuriha was around this time round.
it was fun OFCOZ!
woo!
we reached dere quite a bit late so managed to watch the shows which performed from 8.30 onwards..
8.30pm=
FASPITCH.
a band from phil.i tink.
hxc gilerr!
they reali noes how to make the gig-goers became crazy!
the impact was overhelming.
despite the muddy ground,people stil moshed,body surfed n even doing the hxc dance.
like usual we wud stand juz a few feet from the stage..
so the moshers hit on us again.
thus our shoes n legs was filled wif mud stains.
n iT was REALI MUDDY.
sheeeshh!
=.=*
felt very satisfied tho coz only those who moshed or stood infront tends to get their shoes dirty.
lol.
there were security guards..a few guys were taken out.
it was a total chaos!
okie im exagerating.
woop!
guess venom was reali enjoying his butt out yest..
he *body surfed..moshed..
woah mcm cool gitu sei.
it was so sweet of venom's sis n her fren to be very protective for the three of us.
so glad tat there were protectors.
hehe.


saw AK again,Syafiq N Spec too..
we tegoh n we tok..



didn go to baybeats todae bcoz of some certain reasons.
gahh!
okie skip2.


Syaf made ya cried a few hours ago.
wen i saw her she was lying on the floor crying.
she seems to b in a lot of pain.
seriously.
pity her lurh.
reasons wat bcoz dat..
ya playfully played arnd wif a rotan..
she rotan syaf.
she tried to rotan syaf again.
syaf was furious.
she took ya's hand..twist it..
ya punched her..some part of her nose bleeds.
thus syaf took the rotan from ya's hand.
den immediately she whacked her violently.

ya's back. okeh bra strap tak penting ehk. o.o
[tilt ur head]


kakti sound syaf after getting to noe bout tis fact.
mak plak cakap "asal tak pkai pisau skali..?"
lol.

k wtv.

bsok puase baybee!
woo!
the way tat the spore mufti anounced bout tmrw is fasting day was so touching lurh..
cant wait to buke wif ninie ceetee again.
insyaallah.
xD


Faz sent me two comment todae.
didn hev the courage to even took a peek at it at first..
im scared tat it wud hurt myself again.
so nuriha was the first one to read it.
the content was touching..a comment dat doesn made my heart bleed..
sort of like tat urh.
im juz so glad that he ask fer an apology.
im juz so confuse..soo insecure n im clueless of wat going to happen to me rite now.
he told me tat he hate me two days ago.
memories of us haunt me every nite.
okie dammit.. i miss him rite now!
erghhh!!
=/


klah.
tc people.
xD

woah..okeh de last few days was a total roller coaster ride!

n every ride will end eventuali..

soo..im preety glad tat this scary ride has ended.

to be in a roller coaster was scarrryy oi.

lol.

gahh!

nmpknye sgl alek aku nie.

haha.

yesterday was truly the blasting rocking day ever!

wen to baybeats wif syaff at arnd 8 pm as the other two rangers were lazy.

we r late so we missed out 2 of the shows.

gahh!

reached dere at arnd 9,20.

met up wif venom n gang.

ayim reach moments later.

we managed to watch force vomit n typecast.

force vomit was OK.

bt the respond from the viewers was not as hyper as typecast.

typecast rock mann!

the vocalist screams..n woo totlly rawcking!

the exciting part was dat we were juz a few feet from the stage..

n dat means dat we r putting ourself inside the moshpit area.

n yurh me n syaff was totally moshing to the beat from typecast.

its like we r being pushed everywhere..struggling to keep both our feet upright..not in secure of ourself..able to relieve the stress in our brain..n blah3..

despite feeling scared at first..i was so proud tat ive just conqured my fear of moshing.

there were hardcore dancers..body surfing too.

venom's sis told us to stay out frm the hardcore dancers area as it was 'strictly for guys'.

hardcore dance looks so damn brutal.

but anewae..

gerek siak.

lol.

wee..

going to baybeats again todae.

tmrw also insyaallah.

hee.

ok well.

saw AK n Wok at dere too.

AK tegoh us.

hev a chat wif him fer a while before heading back to the stage area.

maxx..moi frensta fren,saw me also.

juz cant believe tat he recognised me altho kite tak pena meet.

woo.

Breym gave me a ride home yesterday.=]

bez la kann naek motor!

Sesat skejap jek.

sheeesh!

xD

waited fer syaff n venom to reach teban..

so me n ayim sat on the edge of a road.

they reached.

we lepak3.took pictures.

wen suddenli something scary occur.

flapping was heard.

dogs howling.

a woman's voice wooing.

bangla running dunno fer wat reasons.

'it' was like so near to us.

my legs were trembling the whole time..felt so cold.

thus ayim n venom told us to chill n act as if nothing happened.

so glad tat me n syaff didn saw aneting weird..

but ayim saw it tho.

time check=1.30 plus am.

scary huh?

here are some of the pictures tat we took..

weeee-

posing beb. haha.xD

Me n breym aka ayim aka jts.
xD

Watch dis video people.
the lady in black cool shiet mann !
woo.
haha.
xD
n i noe video ini antique.=]

it happened again.
karma huh?..
frankly..u doesn need to told all abt it to her.
tak perlu.
if wat u were doing was rite..
i wouldn hev tegoh or be pissed wif u.
doesn need to tell her about u reading my blog.
the post was not meant to hurt u or aneting close to it.
it was juz meant for u to ponder..reflect back abt wat wrong uve doned.
but if u still tink dat ur not in the wrong..im speechless.
cut down ur egoistic agenda plz.
erm..but yet u told her "nah..who cares." in her comment.
great faz.
dat is truly hurtful.
now i realli noe the real u.
tanx.
u r juz a jerk,hypocrite guy.
plz change for the sake of ur nex one..
n yurh.
tell her..if only she was in my shoe.. let see how she will react.
its easier for her to say since shes not the one experiencing it.
n tru all the feedbacks i received,deres no boifiee who wud do tis kind of hurtful stuff to the person they love.
its like so downgrading.
its not as if im a 13 years old gerl who is so naive..giving in to whom she love.
i hev always been giving in to u.
i hev always love u n yearning to hev another meeting wif u.
but in a split second u wanna let me go.
thru a comment lagi.
i was shocked.
tried very hard to regain myself in front of tis lappy.
i was hoping u wud say sori or aneting sweet by the two cmnt u sent.
but no.
tears trickling down my cheeks while typing dis shit.
i hope ur happi.
n yurh.
justthesky was juz my fren.
venom fren.
n he care.


n kakti ngah kite sume da uat plan smlm nk makan buke togeda ramai2 one day..ya wif shalam.adeq wif venom.abah ngan mak.kakti wif abg izan.wa ngan faz. i was extremely excited. looking forward to dat day. but i guess dat day is not going to happen huh? ....

ive enlarge the font.
for ur sake,so tat u doesn need to squeeze ur eyeballs juz to read wat ive wrote.

wanna pass eng?
here are some tips from AYIM VENGEANCE. aka justthesky. aka Breym=]


-pade i klau nak improve english u need to listen,observe and try to use good and simple english while u see others applying perfect english..
-grammar and vocab u need to observe the sentence carefully..
-understanding the passage u need to get the whole brain inside the story and not to think outside the story..
-when u write english, try to write as simple and as perfect as it can be...
-try not to write,speak or use singlish in ur mind and ur werds..
-singlish spoilt ur english..
-when u practise doin past years paper, try to have the answer sheets with u.. once u done doin it, refer those answers to urs..
-again, remember, use simple and good words to improve on ur english..
-how bout ur compo?
-ok i kasi u tips ok?
-when doin ur compo rite, make sure u PLAN WELL with the storyline tat u gonna write.. dont change STORY or OUT of topic.. plan a draft first..
-choose a good climax.. climax is where the story really begins to kick..
-takde time? everyone will says tat.. but u need to manage ur time my dear koochy..
-plan well and fast..
-there is a time.
-i hope u really take down all those tips i wrote for u.. tats juz infos..
-make it a habit by reading newspapers.
-slowly, it will help u understand good words and sentences..
-koochy.. dont be lazy ok..
-i tahu u boleh uat..
-dont read science fiction or those storybooks.. try to read like readers digest, newspapers..

haha.
i really took it all down Breym.
tanx so much.
wee.
xD

u blame it all on me..
kau salakan aku bcoz of starting dis pertengkaran.
tap kau tau tak why i did all these?
coz im tired of lying to myself acting as if nothing had happen,
u once said tat i didn care for u bcoz of not asking bout ur daes n stuff..
but how much care hav u given me?
kau cakap dorang sume tuu kawan rapat kau?
aku pon ader kwan rapat lelaki lurh sial..
tapi aku tau aku peh limit.
i love my guyfrens too.
but aku tak pena cakap like wat u said to them.
ily.imy.i wanna hug u blah3..
wtf cibaii.
kau pikir kau maner peh hawtstuff nie?
disn u realised dat ur gerlfrens might even tink dat u r some kind of jerk by saying dat to them wen u alreadi hev a gf?
u share all ur sorrow n heartpain to them FIRST..BESTFREN LAA KATEKAN..before EVEN sharing or informing me..
im ur gerlfwen dammit!
n how am i suppose to noe all abt it if u hide it all away from me?!
ive put in much effort alredi.
ive scattered ur face in my frensta profile..but did u?
u didn give me comments abt how much u miss me or love me..
but ur fingers seems so ringan to type to them..
I IGNORE ALL TAT SMALL STUFF.
aku sabar.
now i noe how fyza feels wen u r out dere loving me wen u were still in a r'ship wif her..
kecian siak.
i tot u will change..but no.
u haven.
juz put urself in my shoes..
imagine seeing my comment on other guys profile..
-i love u zarin!! gimme a kiss again !
-i miss u like fark lurh fauzee!
n blah3..
SAPE NK MATIKAN FAZ?!
1...
2..
3...
I DO!! I DO!! I DO!!

x'D

SO GLAD TAT I STILL HEV THE RANGERS BY MY SIDE..

emotional breakdown.
bgr..
school..
guess i shud juz read some books to improve my eng rite now.
update soon.=]

The last few days ran to an endless loop of happiness n excitement.

*blink3*

it all ended soo quickly.

pictures= talk okie?

our stay-pyramid hotel

sunway lagoon.. dis bridge was not SCARYY. starbuckz..
having breakfast..on the day of our departure
************************************************

now i hev to face all this incoming shitty reality..

school..exams..retaining or get promoted or even drop to Na.

i rue the days wen i neglected my studies thinking dat i cud make it by a lot easier.

freaking scared right now.

erghh!!

u cud see fer urself how bad my eng is..

thru all the past post ive wrote?

besides reading.. wat are the other ways to pass eng?

wth.

**************************************************************

met up wif faz as soon as i reached s'pore on sunday nite.

we hugged,kissed..basically like wat most couple will do after daes of separation.

we sure misses each other laa.

weee-

we parted at 12.30 am n dat was wen i reached home n syaff told me abt the comment he sent to fyza.(his x D)

im not jealous or aneting close to it..

hes juz a hypocrite jerk i may say.

im tired of battling,OR slapping his face,so i told him tat i was ok the nex day.

peace.

xD

WOOOO!

Baybeats coming baybee!

will be going dere on fri nite wif the hardcore peeps.(hakim n clan)

nokia powerhouse here we come.

rock3!

yeah weeee-

nk pkai aperr erh?

heee..xD

klah.

Bye3!

xD

IF DERES SOMETHING U WUD LIKE TO CONFESS..

Lost.

Im scared,if something might happened between us again.

we fought, lack of trust , upset towards each other on certain things or even getting jealous to unessecary 'background'.

I hate it.

He seems soo different now.

I misses those time wen he was still attached wif fyza.

He treated me wif so much care regardless of having fyza in his life.

Ive successfully reaced the top of our love barrier.

Ive won.

N thus im tired.

I miss it wen he used to bade me gudnite.

Cant he hears my scream,decipher wat ive hide?

Stop dwelling bout the past which will never rejuvenate again.

Fatigue/

EFFING! effing! EFFING!

syuARGHH!!

fuck.
i fought wif faz.
reasons= he was pissed wen i put AK pix on my "who i wan to meet" at friendster n bout stuff.
uneccesary burden siol.
you guys can see the 'pissed' comment he sent me at my friendster.
saket hati oii.
gahh!
im alreadi upset about failing all my subject..
n he came bringing in more sadness.
wth.


haiz..
ARGHH!!
=[

anewae..im off to kl from 21-24 aug.
shopping3 baybee!
woohoo!
tak sabarnyee.
but mt exam spoilt de mood.
why must it b on thurs?
kan kene datg skola on thurs..
=.="

hmm.
klah.
bye2!
xD

gahh!
i failed my math ca2 by 1 FUCKING MARKZ!!!
upset-ting siak.
gahh.
i put in so much effort oii.
wth.
haha.


yeay.
its weekend!
wee.


heading to vivo city to teman-ing kakti shopping later.
i juz love going out.
gee.

ow yurh.
anewae.
faz grandfather passed away this morning.
i felt so sorry for him.
i dunno much of the story yet.
wen i asked him wether if he was ok?
his replied was "i tink so."
sape seii yg tak risau..gahh.
n he is werking later in the evening.
hepi werking yee my dear.
lol.
=]


stay short n simple.
Bye2.
xD

AIYO!

im going to fail my ss.
=.=/
i memorized all the irrelevant sources.
in the end..i only filled in 1 1/4 page of the fulscap paper..
half of Dexter's i tink.
lol.
dier tulis pjg oii!
wth.
gahh!
=[.

will be receiving our math results tmrw.
cant wait! cant wait!
wee.

i dunwan to retain or drop to NA dats all.
i wanna be in sec 4e nex year.....=[
now den i realised dat it is a tough job to be in the express stream.
ur circulation of frens were all 'clever' people.
thus,if u slack..
u'll be left alone sia.
gee.

****************
my hair extension is dropping by daes.
its becoming thinner n thinner.
fuck.
im tinking of sticking it back togeda using SUPER GLUE.
okeh tak?
haha.
bobal memek.
lol.

yeay besok dapat brownie from Huda.
cant wait!cant wait!
yearning to eat it seii.
xD
*******************************

faz gilerr.
always noe how to put a smile on my face/
juz now i asked him" sat u keje? "
he replied " hmm..i tnk so..i blom check schedule..y?
i replied "bler agi sei wanna meet dear.."
he replied " hari raye? muahaha! idk la cyg..blah3?"
WOW hari raye ehk..
lol.
crazy him.
his craziness always made my day.
ilh.
xD

klah.
bYE2!
xD

i confess....

i freaking MISS

• Fauzee/Ogy

gahh!!

i miss the bond tat we shared.

i misses ur craziness.

i misses the way u were always dere to cheer me up.

i misses the time wen we stroll at Botanic Grden without us knowing where to go.

i misses all the funny content of every sms u sent.

i misses the tyme wen we were out jamming togeda.

i misses the time wen we chill wif faizal,shaun,Daryl..

senang cakap..i freaking miss u.

not in a weird way ofcoz.

xD

ive just finish watching 'malam pertama di alam kubur'.
millions of mixed feelings is running tru my mind n heart rite now.
Saddened.
espcially after reflecting back all the pass day ive been tru.

how pathetic can human get?
we juz need to complete all the task tat was given by Him n it was all easy task..but yet we couldn even fulfilled it?
who am i to say this rite?
but damn.
the video really made me wan to chge.
slowlyyy..
starting from=
all piercings=i decided to took it all out=)
(tapii mcm syg seii.=[ )
gahh!!

klah.
todae skul was fyne.
had our eng ca2 juz now.
efffffffiiiiinnnng difficult sia!
maybe not to others lurh but to me it is.
gee.
=.=*

n todae eng lesson was SUPER BORED.
read abt Barbie N Ken.
but seriously kan..does Barbie really cud effect someone's life?
bout being a model,hot bod...
to think of it..is it so fun playing wif that doll?
we cud only move her LONG legs,LONG arms n play wif her Beautiful hair.
wth.
but small kids suicidal-ly wan to hev it.
weird.
i sounded as if i hev neva playd wif it sia.
lol.
k wtv.

lepak3 wif faz yest at nur's house.
ya n nur was dere too.
he cabot skola again.
=.=*
it was fun.
i get to slp by his side..rest my head on his chest,watch the hottie n the nottie on his lappy,plyed need for speed and more2.
..........


hev i mention tat on fri me n syaf skip skul?
yurh.
n we didn provide an mc todae.
ft says dat she'll report.
to who idk.
gahh seram.
=.=""


okeh soo tmrw is math exam.
study3 Laa kan.

bYE dEN.
xD

IM BACK WIF FAZ!
hehehe.
so now...
hev to chnge my status here n dere..frenster for example.
lecehk urh.
gee.
hapi siak aku.
gahh!
ilhim.=]

k newae.
mum n dad were not werking todae.
Faz paitao skul. (kite due da plan taknk p skola.)
end up he came to my house. (wif mum n dad arnd ofcoz)
we ate lunch togeda at kedai kopi.
chill3 at my house,help him to rebond his hair n blah3.

went to Fatihah's crib also.
she lend me,syaff n nur some dresses tat cud be worn tomrw.

skip3.

he sound fer a patch wen we r inside the lift.
wen i was acmpanying him to the bustop.
i didn officially said ''yes!''.
in fact i doesn even reply to his question.
but we know.
WE r eventually togeda agaen.
gee.

i wana to be in his arm rite now.
rindu siak.
imisshimimisshimimisshim!
x]

k
me n syaf met up wif each of our 'wans' yestrday.
me n wan head to clarke quay.
while syaff n her wan went to marina area.
k blah3.
wan is sweet but weirdly,he is SOO sweet to ever be wif me.
he is juz isnt 'my cup of tea'.
sori.
n sori again if my muntah ever kene ur shoes.
gee.


meeting fatihah n clan tmrw at cthall.
meeting faz n his bandmate aka 'tears fer the rejects' tmorw too.
now im confused.
shud the both clan merge togeda?
k lets juz folow the flow la tmrw.


hee.
hepi 43 bdae spore.
cant wait fer tmrw!
xD

Deres PINK all over my blog's layout.
Deres PINK all over my friendster layout too.
Since wen im into PINK?
hmm.


k unecessary Syu.
xD

wooyee!
new song! new song!
move to the beat people...woo!

hahaha.
k tak perlu syu.
lol.

okie2.
todae skul was like usual OKEY.
Wan (Shalam's fren) texted me too.
n to my fucking suprise=he was 18 years old.
wow kecyk.
i was expecting him to be 20 n above seii.
hahaha.
tapi dier cute laa kan.
gahh.

nothing much happened to me lately.
so dats bout it.
gee.
bye2.
xD

lfye is getting much better now.
hehehe.
me n faz is still juz fren.
hah.
mcm2 urh kite.
ok well.
i stil luv him tho.
boohoo.
xD

Ya told me tat Shalam's fren seems to b upset coz i did not turn up yest.
alahai.
millions sorry k.
meet up soon k cute.
lol.

was out wif faz yest dats why.
wen to apex house bfore accmpnying him back to yishun.
received a free ride to yishun.
faz's dad sent us.
den we head teban.
lepak3.

dats all.
xD

faz wanted me back.
iluvhim.still.

ive alreadi rejected the ''application'' but wen i was sitting around to ponder i realised dat,wats the use of me being sgl wen my heart is stil wif him n it seems to b blocking other guys to enter. ive searched for replacements but i still cant accpt them. its weird.
for 3 lng months i was left to rue..shud i take him back like the way my hart yearns too?
nuriha agrees.ya too.
but syaff hev not been supporting. im sure kakti hate him too.
ive chnge. he will change too.
hope our new loveline will b different this time round.
ilyf:)

The last post was kinda emotional..

confession of a broken heart urh.

gee.

bfore anybody starts to label me anything..i hev decided to 'webding' all the werds dere.

sorri.

me n only me aje yg bole ace.

kihkih.

k lol.

xD

school was bttr den fyne.

n it is all bcoz of math lesson.

i love MATH.

reasons=i understand wat shes teaching.

wee.

xD

meeting venom agaen todae.

study3.

mann i love genius frenzie!

Hee.

syaff tagging along coz she wanted to.

gahh.

kLA till here.

im tired.

BuBYe!

xD