gahh.



BY fREN.

aS im faLLing down,

to the scattered misery beLow.

memories turn bLack.

LittLe it matters.

the pain between my LifeLine cease to exist.

broken truths forgotten.

cos in a moment im gone.

and u'll be Left to rue ur own misfortune.

thnx for breathing Life to me in the past.

but im juz so sorry dat i cant b perfect.

im falling.

and faLLing...

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

TO fREN.

im drowned.

never wanted aLL tis torments to haunt.

i had it upon myseLf.

im bLeeding sick,

crying in misery.

im juz to weak to b a part.

aLwaez knew things Like tis wud happen.

bt yet im not prepared.

coz im sure our fate,

wiLL not be dis fake.

tnx so much for not showin it wen u r pissed.

Like you,

im faLLing too.

now tat i Lose you

it kiLLs me to say..

ive tried to hoLd on as u sLowLy fade away.

im Losing the fight.

Losing aLL my might.

i was too quiet for u to hear.

the choice was urs to make.

Let aLL ur worries b revoLve.

nothin Last forever.

n sori i cant b perfect.

we r bck Like Lst time again.

hes sgL now.

why of the sudden brek up?

idk myseLf.

gahh.

END.

byebye.

x)

''sometimes it pisses me off the way u are pLayin games wif me.i usuaLy i dun show it but sumtimes its juz a waste of time toking to u..u ask me to koL but yet u dun taLk''

so yestr.
he did koL.
but.
i dun hev the courage to tok to him.
im sori faz.
im weak.

n dat is wat he mcg after we put dwn the fon.^

i dunno wat i shud rpLy.
but dis is wt i toLd him.

''juz 4get bout me''

den i broke into tears.
gahhahah.
wee.

his hp batt is fLat.
so i undrstnd why he doesn rpLy.

n hour Ltr.
arnd 1 pLus.
sme privet no koL.
3 Times.
its him.
i nvr pick it up.
gahh.


=I

wtv.
BYEBYE.
X)

gahh.
'fren' juz koL up.
two miss koL.
i did not pick it up.
hmm.
but pikir pikir baLek..why must ii avoid him.
wen i shud Like tok to him kn.
settle things up.
yer.
sometimes peopLe r juz born cnfused.
so i mcg him to koL me bck.
n now.
im waitin..n waitin..n waitin..
pathetic.
-.-*

so juz hopin he wud koL n i hev the courage to teLL him wat i wud wan to cnvey.
gahh.

hey dere werLd.
x)

hehe.
dunno sejk biLer i Listen to hiphop..but dis song sriosLy NICE!!n de dancestep..WOOH!


ok.
so yest.
faz nvr did koL.
he wud usuaLi koL..
but yest NO.
its ok.
u hev ur own reson rite.hmm.
but.
im not goin to pick up the fon nemore if u were to koL.
n im nt goin to rpLy if u were to mcg.(LETS jUZ 4gET aBT EaCH OTHER YaR!)wee. =[
im sori 'fren'.
gahh!!
b strng syu.
*ooh ya.tnx ninie 4 the advice.aLthgh u dun noe much.heh.=]

okie.
so juz now.
werkwerk.
4-8.
wee.
n its fun.
tt is the time wen i cud 4get aLL abt the 'ReaL werLd'.
hmm.
wee.

n juz now.
smebodi wan my no.
it was syaqirah bro.(hes cute.=p)
i gev it to her.
koL me desperate.
coz i am.
im desperate to 4get bout 'fren'.
n im juz hopin smoene cud heLp me to heaL the wound tt was made.
gahh.


BYEBYE.
=]

gahh.
ok.
tode nvr wen outz.
sty di rumeh jek.
n we order mac.
irst time mkn chicken foLdover.
hehe.

n dis irrittin keyboerd is mseh rosk.
grr.
tootTOOT.

SO YEST.
wen outs.
wif 'fren' n nur.
Not fun.ok its fun jgk ckit.
gahh.
'fren'seems diff.
LoL
wtv.

seriosLy.
im sick.
i need to tok to him.
u noe.ebout us Lovin ech othr wen he redi gt e gerL.
fcuk Le.
gahh.
i hate myseLf 4 Likin u.
SO tode i've toLd him to koL me.
n yer.
i wish he wud koL.
n i noe he wud koL.
gahh.
pLzPLZ koL me faZ.
hishh.
Lets end it aLL here tode.
i've hed it.
ahh.

evribody seems hepi.
but im Like stuck here Likin smone's guy.
wth syu.
PETHETIC SIaL.
=[
=[
=[
sedih Le sei.
ok.tode b firm syu yek.



ok.
no mood.
BYEBYE.

bored.=[

TIME:-
1.20 pm

WHERE ARE YOU NOW?-
in d Livin room

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU DID ?-
Just on the phone.

SONG YOU'RE LISTENING TO?-
Tokio HoteL

WHERE ARE YOUR PARENTS?-
werking...

SPEN DING CHRISTMAS WITH ?-
idk yet...=]

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?-
roti jHN.

LST PERSON YOU MESSAGED?-
sIS YA.

ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP?-
nopE.

DRESSES / GOWNS?-
dresses best.

ARE YOUR NAILS PAINTED?-
NOpe.

LAST ITEM BOUGHT ?-
KFc..gahh.

WHAT ARE YOU SMELLING O?-
-.-*

WHAT ARE YOU EATING?-
not eating.

WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO?-
goin OUTZ.

DO YOU LIKE DOING SURVEYS?-
yes.sometimes.

A GAME YOU LOVE PLAYING?-
Duunno.

ALL TIME FAVORITE HEELS?-
i don't wear them.

ALL TIME COAT?-
i don't wear one.

DO YOU DRESS STYLISHLY ALL THE TIME?-
grrr.idk. :D

ARE YOU WEARING A NECKLACE?-
no.

TOPIC ON?-
ape die?

STAR S OR SKY?-
both luhs :D

CASH OR CREDIT CARDS?-
credit cards

DECEMBER / JANUARY?-
december

IS YOUR HAIR TIED UP?-
nope.

DO YOU HAVE ASSETS?-
no

DO YOU MOURN?-
enta.

WHAT COLOUR CAN WE SEE YOU MOST IN?-
black.

ARE YOU DOWN TO EARTH?-
idk..

DO YOU MAKE A GOOD SHOPPING BUDDY?-
sometimes .

DO YOU MAKE A GOOD GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND?-
idk leis.

DO YOU MAKE GOOD PINEAPPLE TARTS?-
idk.

LAST THING YOU COOKED?-
nono.

WHERES YOUR PET / PETS?-
dun have one.

NEXT PERSON WHO WILL BE COMING OVER YOUR PLACE?-
NurIHa..

WOULD YOU EVER LET YOURBOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND SLEEPOVER?-
yeh.cooL.=]

LAST THING YOU LOST?-
nothin.

CAN YOU SING?-
gahh.who duns.

=]

wokie.
so the keyboard was fine.
dunno why it is ok all of a sudden.
ALHAMDULLILAH.
wooohhooo!

okie so yesterday.
wen to East Coast Park(not 'esp' Maxx)
gahhaha.
wen dere wif a 'fren'.
ok so yar.
IT WAS FUN.

meet 'fren' at jrg east intrchnge.
took a bus frm dere.
frm jrg to east.
how far is tat?!
gahhaha.
n yar.
wen we were inside the bus..some weird person mcg/kol me.
tis is how it goes.

(after 2 miss kol frm unknown no)
unknown no:ira kau kat mane?
syu:nie sape?cari syahirah ehk?(ok.i tot tat was my sis frens.gahh.)
unknown no:nie sape?
syu:nie syuhaidah.(im sure if it was ya fren,she wil no who 'syuhaidah' is..but..)
unknown no:syu mane?

ok so syu never replied.
wth.she ask me who am i wen she was the one who gt my no.grr.
den she call.
i pick it up.

n dis is how our conversation goes.

unknown no:hello.
syu:hello.nie sape?
unknown no:nie sape?
syu:nie syuhaidah. (agaen.-.-*)
unknown no:ow syu ehk? (finally she noes me) where r u now?sape ader pat surrounding?
syu:aah.jap2.nie sape? (gahh.agean.n why the heck she wan to noe where im at n whos im wif?!grr.)
unknown no:nie fyza.kenal tak? (ok to those who dunno fyza is.its betta if u guys dunno.gahhaha.)
syu:ow. (silent fer a moment)
fyza:kenal tak?
syu:*tut* 'fren' ehk?
fyza:aah.
syu:ow ok.
fyza:where r u?
syu:im inside the bus lar.
fyza:ow.'fren' ader pat saner?
syu: .......
fyza: .......
syu: ........
fyza:jgn blang 'fren' k i kol u. (but it was too late.i alreadi told 'fren' abt a few min ago.sori.)
syu:ok.
fyza:pomish k.
syu:ok. (ok. i lied.deres no other way.sorie!!)

n we end our conversation.


i was like weird smiling to myself during the bus ride.
tinking abt juz now wen fyza kol n mcg.
how the heck did she get my no?
'fren' pon hairan sei.
hmm.
she was kind in a way.
i felt so guilty.
gahh.

idk wat im going to do now.
'fren' told me not to lyn any mcg or kol from her.
i told fren''wat if i wan to layan her?''
'fren' said''no.''(wif his serious face)
gahh.
i shud have never told 'fren' dat his *tut* kol me.
but i told 'fren' alreadi..so..too late.i cannot layan her.
i wan to talk wif her actly.
gerl on gerl is much more 'fun'.
i pity her actly.
*to fyza.im sori.dun wori,but i will try my best not to let him slip away from you.i myself is not up to it.sori if im the coz to all ur misery.i wan to tok to u.but it seems tat i cant.me myself is confused.sorie.=[

sial ar 'fren'.
ur *tut* love u so much n dis is wat u did to her.
cibaiii.

those who dont understand wat im talking abt.its betta if u guys dun understand.x)



ok.
so spent some time at ecp.
we were sittin on the rock.
watchin the wave.(emo2.gahh)
wen suddenLi dis grp of 'matrepz' came and started making noises.grr.
n they sat soo near to us.
some of their conversation was funny though.
so some part i was like laughing.n 'fren' was laughing too.
n they were like talking abt 'songkar'.
it is n indirect speaking abt them 'maen baju cine'.
so kirekn diorang tuu ganster lar.
LoL
actly 'fren' is oso one of the 'maen aju cine' jgk .
'fren' says to me tat they juz wan to berlagak.
ok wtv.



so was back home at arnd 11.45 wif ya.(meet ya at intercnge)
okie.
END.

x/

Gahh.

so todae..

im oFF.

gonna go to ECP.

weewee.
wif some 'fren'.






im 'sick'.
im juz hoping the wave cud heal me.
gahh.
(the wave cud heal?wat the..)


SO.
cantwait!cantwait!
uhh.








n yesterdae.
werk was so much fun.
yeah.
was working at my own counter.
And all the people was like so HAPPY-including me.
dere were NO AUNTIES on shift only teenagers and adults.
un ooiii.
there were three counters.
n it was control by me n two other gerl.
n guess wat.
three 14 year old kid is taking people orders.
gee.
n im starting to make more frens here.
things gonna be diff without all of them at Anchorpoint.
''ma'am..i dunwan to transfer canx?''
gahh.
nk kene uat kawan lagi kat saner.
grr.






ok yar.
so wen gonna be our nex outing??
hyrul alreadi send syaf a comment abt tat.
plan2.
gahhaha.
bored la always werk n stay at home.
n its fun u noe going out wif u guys.
=DD






HAHA.
was browsing through my document/my pictures/my local disk g.
n saw some old/new pichas.
so decided to upload dem.
gahh.

the rangers.ya,adeq,wa n nur.
we were heading to the countdown 2007 i tink.
hah.



going outz wif fat,indah,shira,adeq n ya
shopping2.

dis pic was actuali put on self timer.
without we realises it,my face n syaf face was like being 'cut'
mcm style gitu.

da first pic i took wen i cut my fringe-straight.not nice.

going to sleep in early afternun.
*both of the bantal is mine.but idk why syaf love it so much.pasal busuknyee agknye.gahh.

durin racial harmony day.


kk.syaf is like freaking me out here.
shes rolling on the floor!!!!
gahh.
scaryy.
n she was suddeny pushing the chair which i was sitting.
sot.

n my keyboard is driving me crazy.
some alphabts cannot be pressed.
grr.

klah.
BYEBYE.
X)

was reading the bulletin board again.
n i saw dis question-anz thingy.
so decided to do it.agaen.
im addicted.
gahh.

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
♥ yup.aww.

2. A big poofy dress or a short partydress?
♥ short party dress.xD

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
♥ find out who it's from n ...?

4. Group dates or single dates?
♥ sgl dates is much betta.

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
♥ YARGH!

6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend?
♥ dun tink so.

7. Is your hair up or down today?
♥ ALWAEZ down.short hair.duhh.

8. Do you straighten your hair?
♥ sometimes.using the straightening iron.

9. Favorite compact powder?
♥ tan-silkygirl

1 0. Do you get your nails done?
♥ yup.potong kuku.gahh.

11. Small or large purses?
♥ large.

12. In your purse, what are your must haves?
♥ ezlink,cash,keys.=D

13 . Jeans or sweats?
♥ jeans.

14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry?
♥ yes.all of these above.

15.Do you text message a lot?
♥ yar.sometimes.

1 6 . What would you do if you got pregnant?
♥ hissh.why tok abt pregnant?im alreadi late.scaryy sei.

1 7 . What’s your favorite color?
♥ black.

18 . Heels or flats?
♥ flats.coz im tall.=D

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
♥ Yar.romantic movies are meant for people to cry rite?gahh.

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
♥ yup.skul?

21. Walmart or Target?
♥ ape die??

22. Do you wear collared shirts?
♥ sometimes

23 . Do you like preppy boys?
♥ wat is preppy boys??

2 4. Do you think lip gloss is the best?
♥ yar.our lips wont get too dry n it makes our bibir look nice.

25. Do you own any big sunglasses?
♥ yurp.

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
♥ 45min.

2 7. Do you like to wear band-aids?
♥ wat is dat?

28. Do you like skater boys?
♥ yar.cool uhh.

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
♥ yurp.my feelings toward tat guy.

30 . Gold or silver?
♥ silver

31. Do you like to receive flowers?
♥ oh yes!but i prefer HUGE CUTE bear.

32. Do you like surfer boys?
♥ yar.But not the soo tan one.

33. Do you dress up for the holidays?
♥ err..ntah.

34. Do you like to wear dresses?
♥ no.i dun like to show my knees n below.

35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
♥ 6

36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a boyfriend?
♥ nope.juz relax at home.

37 . Would you date a guy shorter than you?
♥ nope.dunno why.

k end.
x)

eventually.
broinlaw 'forget' to pull the modem away.
haha.
so here i am playing the lappy.
bored2.

i was reading the bulletin board at frensta.
n i encounter a sad story posted by some guy.
sedih skali.

tis is how it goes...

a boy
and a girl,
the best of friends.
From elementary to high school
from beginning to end.

Through all those years
their friendship grew.
They both felt the same,
but neither knew.

Each waking moment
since the day they met.
They both loved each other
sunrise to sunset.

He was all she had
He was the one
who kept her from her knife.
She was his angel,
she made him smile
.Though life threw him curves
,she made it all worth while

Then one day
things went terribly wrong.
The next few weeks
were like a very sad song.

He made her jealous
on purpose he tried.
When the girl asked, "Do you love me?"
on purpose he lied.

He played with jealousy
like it was a game.
Little did he know
Things would never be the same.

His plan was working
but he had no clue.
How wrong things would go,
the damage he would do.

One night she broke down,
feeling very alone.
Just her and the blade,
no one else home.

She dialed his number,
he answered, "Hello"
She told him she loved him
and hung up the phone.

He raced to her house
just a minute too late.
Found her lying in blood,
her heart had no rate.

beside her was a note,
in it her confession.
Her love for this boy,
her only obsession.

As he read the note,
he knelt down and cried.
Grabbed her knife,
that night they both died.

She was found in his arms,
both of them dead.
Under hernote& amp; lt;brhis handwriting said:

"I loved her so,
she never knew.
All this time
I loved her too."

if u dont repost this in 20 minutes..u will lose the& amp; lt;brlove ofur life and never get them ... blahblah.

so touching.
x/

Gahh!!(ok.terikut syaff pulak.haha)

Faz said me 'CYG' at frensta.
ow so not cool.
ARGH!!
Cis.
Hishh.
i dont like it u noe.(k.actuali i like it.but at frensta??wth!)
shud i like tel him to stop?
yar.opcoz syu.(-.-?)

ok.
n dats all im going to talk about.
lol.
nitez people.
x)

ow yar.
N.
BRO IN LAW IS LIKE GONNA PULL THIS MODEM AWAY FOR A FEW DAEZ.(TINK SO)

#@$%!

SO.
BYEBYE BLOGGER.
BYEBYE FRENSTER.
BYEBYE MSN.
BYEBYE PEOPLE.

haha.
(*-.-*)

Juz drank an 'AIR KUNYIT' juz now.
EeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuUUUUWwWWwwwwwwwwwww.
to those who dun know wat an 'AIR KUNYIT' is..
it is a mixture of juz PLAIN WATER N TUMERIC.
Totally NOT nice.
EeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuuUUUUWwWWwwwwwwwwww.

okok.

heh.

juz now.
werking.
frm 4 to 8.
saw Hairitsa sec 4e inside the kfc.
she was taking the order from me.
n yeah she tegoh.
ok Cant believe she noes me actuali.
weehehe.

tmrw off.
tues off.
thurs off.
sun off.
woohooo.
so many off-ss.
cool.
no need to face the auties2.
wee.

im bored.

hish.

grr.

tsk.

so lets do an ques-anz segment again.
weewee.
here it goes.


1. Three Names You Go By:*
wa..aidah..syu

2. Three Things You Are Wearing RightNow?*
pink shirt,portDICKSON shorts,bra n sluarDLM

Love Survey
You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY Syu
[01] Do you still have feelings foryour ex?*
totalli na'ah.

[02] Have you ever been given roses?*
nopez.

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?*
Dunno leh.hmm.dun hav i tink.

[04] How many times have you honestly been in love?*
err.two.

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?*
yup2

[06] Whats your current problem?*
werk.missing2.

[07] Have you ever had your heartbroken?*
opcoz!

[08] Your thoughts of online or longdistance relationships?*
duunoo if i cud trust the other party...(they might do things bhind our back.hmm.)

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?*
yes

[10] Do you believe in love?*
yar.who donts?

[11] How many kids do you want to have?*
4.

[12] What is your favorite color(s)?*
black.,red,pink,white.

[14] Do you believe you truly love only once?*
tak phm lar nie question.grr.

[15] Imagine you're 69 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married?*
dun tink so.Im oso alreadi old dat time kanz..

[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?*
pri 5..so dat wud be 11.heh.

[17] What song do you want to hear atyour wedding?*
warmness on the soul by a7x..sung by my future hubby himself.=p

[18] Do you know someone who likes you?*
yup.i tink so.

[19 ] Do you like anyone?*
yup

[20] Do you believe in second chances?*
yeah2.


hehe.
end2.

NITE NITE PEOPLE.
X)

haha!
decided to have a question-anzwer segment(?) for todaes entry.
saw ninie n syaf ones.
nmpk mcm bez gitu.
sori kepo yee.
weehehehe.

k so here it goes...

1.LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?;
erm.8monthz.n its darm hard to frget bout him den.

2.LAST KISS?;
grr.secret.

3.EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?;
yar.ofcoz.evribody does.i tink.

4.THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?;
food,clothes,etc

5 .LAST FOOD YOU ATE?;
A medicine.(is it a food?)wtv.

6.LA ST PERSON YOU TALKED TO?;
syaf.

7.WHERE DO YOU LIVE?;
Kampong teban.

8.LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:;
wooh.i dunno.

9.LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND;
last tues.hishh.

10 . WHERE' S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EATWITH FRIENDS?;
Ljs.its cheap.n da cheese super nice.x)

11. CAN YOU COOK?;
yup.

12.CAN YOU BAKE?;
err.no.

13.LAST TIME YOU CRIED?;
Yesterday.cried myself to sleep.

1 4 .LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:;
all about me i guess.

1 5.HATE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?;
im quiet.-.-+

16. CAN YOU SING?;
yup.ofcoz.who donts?

17 .DO YOU SMOKE?;
NO.

18. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?;
Pancake!yum..

19 .DO YOU LIKE CoFFEE?;
bOLeh la jgk.but i prefer Tea.

20 . LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?;
Fatihah.Wanna tok abt the outing bt my pw8 is low.

21 .WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOURECEIVED?;
i woke up tis morning.and tried to find solace frm anywhere.had a dream bout u last nite .... frm Fazly.

22 .CAN YOU PLAY BILLIARDS?;
No.Aru 14.

23. CAN YOU SWIM?;
yup.noes how to save myself onli if deres any trouble happening.=p

24 .FAVORITE ICE CREAM?;
No Favouritezz.

2 5.WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THISMORNING?;
6am.sleep back.n wake up again at 9.24am.wee.

26 .WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?;
Werking.BORED!-.-

27.ARE YOU SMILING?;
yar.=)

28.DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?;
Yar.

29.DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?;
Mayb kot.

30. WHO'S YOUR CRUSH?;
Fazly.k well it is only a crush.

31.D O YOU HAVE A SISTER?;
yup.THree.

32.ARE YOU IN LOVE?;
Dunno.*confused2. but LOVE HURTZ.

33 . DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?;
yup.BT told him alreadi tat i will nvr meet him again.so ... -.-?

34 . WHAT WAS THE LAST COMPLIMENT YOU RECeiVED?;
kau rambot pendek lawa-Frm adeq n ya.after telling em tat i wan to keep my hair long.wee.

3 5 . DO YOU LIKE GETTING COMPLIMENTS?;
yup.duhh.

36. WHAT DO PEOPLE LIKE ABOUT YOUR PHYSICAL APPEARANCE?;
idk.ask them.(the people)heh.

37. DO YOU LIKE HOW YOU LOOK?;
yup.accept wat Allah have given.Nobodies perfect.

39. DO PEOPLE THINK YOURE SMART?;
mayb..idk.ask them.

4 0. FOOD YOU'RE CRAVING FOR RIGHT THIS MINUTE?;
cookie.

41. NAME A PERSON WHO'S NAME STARTS WITH THE LETTER "J"?;
Jumaat.

42. WHERE'S THE BEST PLACE TO EAT ICECREAM?;
Home?hah.

43 . WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU PUT INYOUR GROCERY CART?;
junkfood.

44 . RADIO STATION YOU FREQUENTLYLISTEN TO?;
dun listen to radio actuali.MP3.

45. WHERE DO YOU USUALLY HANG OUT?;
I dun hangouts.Onli jalan2,shopping arnd central.


kk end.
weewee.
haha!
BYEBYE.
X)

I HATE AUNTIES!!!!!!!!!!!!



CIBAI!!!!!!!!!



Those aunties at KFC are driving me crazy.
ok nono.
not crazy.
they are making me upset.
if only i cud cry at tat moment wen thay call me 'slow'.
n its not fair.
im new.like duhh.
why wen u AUNTIES juz joined in u are all so fast ehk?
fcuk.
n HELLO auntie.
i understand chinese ok(yeelatu) so stop talking about me bhind my back.
dun make my life miserable.
i gt many other things to think of rather than seeing each of ur faces on my mind.
tsk.
cant wait to b transfer to ANCHORPOINT.
5/12.
counting the daez..wee.
juz hoping life wud be so much better dere.
INSYAALLAH.



amin.



xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

okok.
POEMS ATTACK!!!!n err.lyrics too.
haha!

i woke up this morning

and tried to find solace anywhere

had a dream bout u last nite

a blissful,yet tragic

makes me wanna break down n cry

and just as i felt lyke flying over the moon

the illusion ended so very soon

im reali sorry hunny

for the fairytale tat was nvr meant to be

picture of u i still dearly kept

tinkingof u even as i slept

juz wanna tell u syu

tat im still loving u

composed by:Muhd Amir Fazly

How many years have we waited

for a ship tat never sat sail?

n how many days have we wasted

chasing a love tat was not our own?

i sat ashore n watched

as one hopeless wave crashed upon another

while my thought ran to the highest hills

my heart never reached the sea

wif only delusions of an endless journey

i am left wif an ocean between u n me.

is tis ur salvation?

is tis all u can giv?

i will not stand in reflection

of someone else's dream

the gate to my heart has been weld shut

wif the splendor of ur aspirations deep in

how many years have we waited

for a ship tat never sat sail?

n how many days have we wasted

chasing a love tat was not our own?

lyrics from the song

as i lay dying-an ocean between us

*dis song rox.

deres more actuali but decided not to put it.

weewee.

hoho.

BYEBYE.

X)

alo.





ok.i doesn noe how to start this entry actly.





k.
hmm.
erm.




wat is a soulmate?


dict search>>


Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, and/or compatibility.





k wth?
da song soulmate by Natasha Bedingfield reali touches my soul dats why.
hahaha.
okok fine wtv.
wee.




yestrday.
wen to werk alone at 10.
bored.
going to b werking alone coz ya says tat she not up to it.(she quits.duhh.)
n asst manager blanje us pizza.
delicious.
its called 'sambal seafood'.
people u shud try it.
its delicious.
hoho.
so wen home arnd 2.30 after listenin to some lectures.





okie.


me n faz planned up to met after dat.
so wen back home to change2 first before meeting THEM at arnd 5 plus.
*them-faz n his fren.
it was cool coz the three of us are wearing all black.
n so people start to stare.
haha.
emoshit.(k well actuali the three of us are not emo.we dun label ourself as emo.so people u shouldn have said tat we r emo..coz we r not.who wans to b emo rite?duhh.)
never knew dat his friend was so frenly.
kecoh sei.
bagos lar tuu due2 kecoh ehk.
hah.
we wen to bhg.bugis,changi village,pasir ris,tanah merah.
we meet up wif faz 'boss' at changi village.
he's going to blanje us makan.
who doesn wan free food rite?
but bugis n changi village is like so far.
so we took a taxi frm dere.
the slengeh taxi driver doesn noe wheres changi village n we r like taking a ride arnd n arnd changi.
pass by changi prison too.
first time nmpk changi prison.
n it was BIG.
n many things happen inside the taxi.

(privacy2).
k.

n atlas.
reach changi village.
faz 'boss' fetch us.
dere was alreadi two gerls waiting fer us.
eat2.
finish eat den the 6 of us walk2.
ow yar.faz help me to carry my bag n i help to carry his.
n he look hawt carrying my beg tepi.
haha.
ok.


took some pix2 using my hp.



so here it goes.

lying against all odds.

Me n mY BESTEE.

da craziness of landak 21 n bogeh cute.



n i reach home arnd 11.30 pm.
end.

n todae.juz had my injection.

tak saket deh.Duhh.

its juz a small needle poking2.

hoh.

gt 2 daez off.

wee.

dang.

my pw8 is SO LOW.

$0.01

PATHETICNYER.

Cant even contact the outside werld.

hoho.

byebye. x]

reflect2.

sun..
12am-8am>faz mcg.composing the poem tat was going to b sent to him.sleep2.
8am-11am>wen madrasah after a few month of malas.gt exam.(consider myself lucky).the paper was so easy.
11.30-1.30pm>ciap2 n head to werk.set Faz a mcg.n send it.
2-8.30 pm>werkwerkwerk.(-.-).But it was somehow FUN.
8.30 till 12 am>play lappy.sleep.waiting for **.

mon..
12am -2am>someone call didn pick up.private no.(it was faz i noe.)sleep.
2am-9am>sleep.ZzZZzZZZZzzzz
9am-11pm>ciap2 wen to werk.
12noon -6>werkwerkwerk.-.-*.faz mcg using a diff no.
6pm-7pm>inside 176 bus.heading home.was inside the bus wif emo-opposite bus stop-skola-evridae.first time nmpk dier depan2.hes cute.boleh lar tahan.heh.
8- ...?>bloggin.chating.cant open friendster.grr. ...

k well end.dunno wats gonna happen later.the rest is still unwritten.

lollol.

well.
been bz lately.
(yeelatuu.)
werkwerk.
boleh jadi bored sei.
tmrw need to b dere at 10 am.
going dere by myself coz ya was in a diff shift.
hmm.
Boring!-.-*

n well.
faz mcg using a diff no juz now.
pw8 low per.
samer lar kite yee.(im broke!!argh!)
it seems tat we have not been ourself lately too.
da laen ar.
hmm.why sei?
dunno la ehk..
hishh.
every night haunting are about u.
hoho.
grr.


=x

cheerz.x)

todae Wen to bugis to acompany mom to take the facial thingy.
took a bus from je interchange.
took some pix2.
wee.

den adeq n ya wanted to eat kfc.
so plan to eat it at jrg east enter instead of eating it at bugis.
we head to the busstop near the kedai makan to wen back jrg.
ya n mom was walking so slow.
so me n syaf was so far infront of them.
suddenli i saw faz's fren at the kedai makan.she was eating wif sumone.couldn guess whos shes wif(deres a wall kepong).
n like i guess.
it was faz.
hishh.
walk pass them so juz wave at him n say 'hi' den i walk away.
but he called.
so must walk towards him.
n he say ''#$%!dtg sini tak blang.''
ok wth.
he say a bad werd to me.
grr.
den mom n ya muncul.
luckily mom never hear wat he says.
he was alreadi shocked.
n so i told him tat was my mom.
n he salam her.
guess mom will ask herself who the heck is tat guy who salam her.
but mom never ask me who he is.
hah.
wtv.
den we walk away.

k i was actuali not so pissed by him saying tat werd.
but he tot tat i was hurt.
so might as well act as if im merajok kan.
yeah.
lagipon let him sedar yang saying bad werds is not gud n cud hurt people's feeling.
mcm phm.
lol.

so wen i was inside the bus he call.
he said sorry for saying the werd to me.
talk wif him fer less than 1 min den letak the phone.
n he mcg.
faz:hey i still feel guilty fer saying tat sei..
syu:gud..
faz:ey kuwang ajar sei..
syu:No Reply.
faz:i was like so waiting for ur reply ... blah2.
syu:NoReply

so dunno if he will ever mcg me again.but i tink he will(coz he owe me a poem)
k wtv.

reach kfc.
eat meltz.delicious yaw.
saw hanz wif his sis too.

den wen back home.

x)

aloalo.

k firstly.

im happy yaw.

KFC was..err..WELL.

me n ya reach dere a lil bit early.

so ya smoke2 first.

(hishh.the smoke was like covering all over my face.pathetic.passive smoker usuali will be dead first than those who smokes.know why?coz the smoker gave out smoke but we passive smoker inhale them.so smokers..get out from my face if u wan to smoke!!grr.)

n the bus tat we r taking-176 was like CRAWLING.

damn slow.

macam mepek cikit gitu.

hah.

received the free uni n stuff.

n my name tag.

weewee.syu so semangat.

n we oso learned about the CHICKEN PARTS.

-breast

-rips

-drum

-thigh

-wing.

well.Basically KFC is all about CHICKEN.duhh.

K END.

im MISSING people.

tsk.

Fauzee,Shaun,Daryl n Faizal n Syaf (not quite sure if im berhak to miss them or not.)

msytery man.hah.

Nur..mane kau?Batam gerl jgk.hah.

The new fwenzies.

Going our separate ways.3B,3A

ow gosh.so cute esp Huda. heh.

yeah.

Darx.

x)

N to whom it may concern.

tis is 4 u.

HeLlO.



noThiNg mUcH To SaY.







well last nite he mcg again.

(tak phm bahase ker kan org ckp pw8 org low.)

A poem/song? again.

couldn understand wat he was trying to convey.



here it goes.

because the mention of the house by the tomb,

he's always chocking from the stench and the fume.

the guests and party all collapsed in the room,

so send my resignation to the bride n grom.

would you marry me,

would u bury me,

would u carry me to the end?

: missing u my sweetheart :

Heavy metal agknye.

k wtv.

nmpk sal dier yg cari aku bukan aku carik dier.

wat the use sei faz?

kau ader gurl lar pantat.

by mcging me do u noe tat u are giving me hopes?

argh!!

i was trying to senyap2 yet ur the one who tried to get closer.

naseb baek sei pw8 low.

kesian sei Fyza.

da 8 mnth korang togeda kanz.

ya gud.keep moving frward.

hish.

haha!
juz create myself a wishlist.
gud.
so tat i will not spend my money on useless,unapropriate items.
heh.
gt to save money lerz.
n dunno why it was UNDERLINED wen dere was suppose to b a strike dere.
grr.

kk.
todae we receive back our channelling result.
im taking hist/ss n art.
im scared if hist was difficult.
hmm.
Hidayah,syahira n hanz will b in a diff class.
it wouldnt be the same without them making kecoh in the class.
hish.

n wen to marina square n bugis.wif ya n adeq.
meet shira,fat n indah katek at marina square mac.
n we didnt be wif them so much.
n we actuali wen on our separate wayz.
we wen to Bugis Junction-BHG.
ya bought herself a shoe at bubblegummer(BATA kids section).
funny deh.
pass by LEVYS too.
saw faz.
den we tok2.
n ya,wa n adeq headed home.

da tu jek.heh.

cant wait for fri.
training for the job.
wee.
*its fun making ourself bz.
yeah.

ow yar newae2.
yesterday chat2 wif Ninie,Ct n Hyrul.
Hyrul?!
hah.
da lamer tak nmpk.
n yar ct n ninie tooz.
heh.
yeah.
dey all gila deh.
haha.
fun larh u guyz.

x)

today (5/11) i ...

>chat wif faz on the fon at 2.3+ am till 4.30 am.
-talk2 bout things n more.
>wake up at 9 o'clock to teman ya go for a job hunt.
-wen to bukit merah n den go to queensway(anchorpoint) FOR NOTHING.
-meet ya's fren.
-need to patah alek to go bukit merah.
>apply for a job at kfc wif ya.
-bacame fren wif some peepz dere.
-interview2.n need to come dere again on fri.(yay.i gt a job.wee)
-dont tink im taking the job at mac with insyirah sume.
>wen to tiong bahru plaza den ct hall-the adelphi coz ya wanted to wen for an interview at watson.
-but we were late.the interview ends at 4 but we came at 4.28.grr.
>frm ct hall den we walk to bugis.
-to search fer a job dere wif faz fer a while coz he was having his break.
-walk2 n search2.hishh.
-bored.
>wen to bugis n bhg n he wen back to werk.
-walk2,window shopping.
-faz,fat n indah mcg-i nvr replied.
>wen back home.



basicaly im tired.malas deh nk tulis pjg2.heh.




hmm.
juz realised tat wat i used to felt last time 'muncul kembali' todae.
hishh.
saket hati ini.
ewah mcm phm.
hah.
but ya gave me a possitive thought.
so yar.
its guud.
heh.

plan2.
tmrw dgr2 ade dk.but not cnfirm coz fairishah nvr mcg.
wed gonna go outz wif pri skul bestiez.n wen to skul fer our channeling results.
thurs rilek i tink.lain lar lau org ajak kuar ker.hmm.
fri must wen fer the kfc thingy.
sat mayb watching faz band performing at woodland cc.(i tink so)
sun ader madrasah..


hishh.bz seihk.but..
argh!bestnyee bzbz like tis.
wee.




byebye.
x)

k wait2.
i feel very the **.
-bored at home.so decided to play the lappy.
msok msn and check my frenster bfore suddenly smeone gave me a pm.
it was faz.
hah.tak prasan yg dier ngah online.(tot he was werking rite now.)
hmm.
so we chat2.
n he gave me a song.
aww.
he composed it after returning home from da shopping2 thingy on thurs.

n tis is how it goes.

First time i met u
Never thought we'd be together
everynite hauntings are bout you
I want u to be mine forever
Against all odds i'll try
The bond that we share i will most treasure
So smile at me and make me fly
Cos hurting u dear i will never ever
You know girl you drive me crazy
Oh girl you make me crazy


Give me another chance
Give me another try
You know i've never meant to make you cry
Wipe your tears and let us dance
A dance to the end we'll prance
Even if sad cruelty tear us apart
Cos we know Syu, we'll still carry on
And into my flesh
Your name will shine red
By the razor and the rosary
We'll paint the walls in pitchfork red

Memories so sweet it lightens up the storm
Another chance to restart from where we began

end.
sweetz kan?
haha.tanx faz.

n hishh.
juz found out tat my pink dye is turning kinda orange!
grr.
wait!orange is kinda nice too rite?
haha.
wtv den.

n yeah.
gonna wen for a job hunt tmrw wif ya.
ajak faz along.(hes damn good in searching for a job)
ok well n i broke my promise.
promise r meant to b broken sometimes.
anewae theres gonna be 3 of us.
heh.
ok.so cant wait for tmrw.wee.


darx!
:)

k actuali we did not meet insyirah at 7-eleven yestrdae.hah.plan to meet them at je interchange.without knowing it,insyirah n hanz was actuali taking the same bus wif me n syaf.me n syaf sat at the right front of the bus so we tak prasan yg diorang ader kat blakang.funny deh.ok so we took a bus to east coast park.about 1n a half hour ride.so fun.dgr2 lagu sendiri.lol.reach marine parade alreadi n we head to ecp.dunno wheres our bbq pit actuali but it was actuali infront of our eyez.hah.n many people reached alreadi.
eat a few food for a while den me,syaf.huda.hidayah n insyirah wen to rent a bike n a rollerblade for myself.they rent a double sit bike.yeah its fun although wen they speed up i have to blade patiently bhind alone.n at one time i exchange with syaf.hah.
took pix2,talk2,bbq2.sent insyirah to bus stop..n blah3.
reach home bout 12 plus wif hanz.we missed the last 143 bus n thus we need to take another bus.need to walk2.hishh.

[taking a ride2 n tibe2 huda tinggi?=p]

x)

ok well.
the outing wif him yestrdae was fine.n funny.
many things happen.
but i wil never wen out wif him again-till his sgl dat is.
pomish myself alreadi.
n yeah.i dun like him anemore.
serious2.
argh.weeee.
heh.
err.
saw him alreadi n we head to bugis.
n yeah dere was an akward silence between us wen we r inside the mrt.
da lamer lar tk jumpe.
>wen shopping2.
we wen to his werkplace.-levi's at bhg.
n he was like so damn frenly.
almost evribodi werking at bhg was his frens.
wen penin tooz and we go to the 2nd level shop-the raichand i tink.hah.
n yeah cant believe the auntie knows me.
she says tat she always saw me entering dat shop.sejak bilerrr??
but kdng2 adelah jgk temankan fauzee dulu.(well its fauzee's makcik angkat.)
but its gud lar coz we can get discount on the items we wan to buy.
regular customer la katekan.
haha.
wen to bugis street too.
we tried on some shades.haha.funni2.
newae.
lau da bestfwen tu kite mesti rapat kanz?
yup.
we r like so rapat n he alwaez help me to messy up my hair.(without me telling him to do it)
hmm.
lollol.
was otw home,inside the mrt wen he gave me a poem at 9.53pm.
(well we both r EMOZ2 so we usualy used poem2 to let out our thoughts)lol.
k dis is how it goes.
to syu frm faz:

i try to b perfect

but nothing was worth it

coz it doesnt make me real

sorrow misery i feel

thought tat i can fget u

but i still tink of u

dun make me say i love you

coz i cannot

n i reali hope syu

tat u will love me not..

reali starve for ur kiss

tanx for the sweet memories

gdnyte sweetheart

n yeah.dis is wat i replied at 11.19pm.basicly i juz copied his sentence n edit it a bit.

to faz frm syu:

i told myself tat i dun like you..

but nothing was worth it.

coz i'll b lying to myself

n it doesnt makes me real.

sometimes im selfish,fake.

i dun deserve u

coz im not dere for u anewae,

though i wish i were dere.

tot i cud frget bout u too

but it have nvr happened.

dun let me hear u say i love u,

coz i cnnt bear to hear it too.

it will juz makes me feel teary.

tis it is i shud say..

faz,i love u not.

reali starve for ur touch

tanx fer the sweet memories

gdnyte ...

end of poetry lesson.lol.

k so now im juz gonna senyap2 wif him like i usuali do.

yeah.

end of story about tat guy.

weewee.

later im going to east coast park for our class bbq.

gonna meet insyirah first at 7-eleven to go tgeda2.

n we r going to take a bus.

n its gonna take FOREVER to reach dere.

hish.

never bring anybody todae.evribody is bz.grr.

hah.

okie.

cant wait cant wait!

wee.

darx.

x)

todae gonna go out wif my bestee-faz.
was msn-ing yesterdae wen he suddenli online.
nvr pm he first.
(gud syu.)
was waiting n waiting fer his pm wen suddenli he pm me.
n dis is wat he says:
"hello dear..wat the hell hav u done to ur hair?????"
im so shocked.
(yest is the first time he saw my hair after being highlited thru frensta pix)
i was going to replied him wen sudenli another phrase muncul.
"it is like soo nice!!!!"
glad to hear tat.hah.
chat2 wif him n he ajak go penin,bugis tmrw bout 2.30.
(which is todae)
said yes.so now im here waiting for the time to fly by.
bored2.
adeq n ya was out heading to afghanistan rd at tampines.
to go interview fer werk2.
afghanistan rd?haha.weird2 name.
abg izan is bhind me eating n kakti is sleeping inside the room.(stomach cramp)
yeah.
faz mcg bout 1 hr ago.n told me to meet him later bout 3.30 to 4.
ok.sure faz.anything for u.lol.(sarcastic)
n now is 02.47.
hish.
klah betta siap2 rite now.
bye bloggers out dere.

x)